saturday night i got so fed-up with studying metab and all the stupid damn enzymes and regulation. actually "fed-up" is seriously an understatement to describe how i feel about metabolism and regulation. anyway i got rather upset and was thinking about the current state i'm in; whether or not i should change course because i'm really suffering and dying in science. wondering why i chose this path and put myself in the misery i'm in. i prayed and asked God of course. then this sunday morning when i went to church, i seemed to have gotten my "answer". the first sentence of the sermon immediately spoke to me. 1) Be faithful to whatever task you are assigned now. whoa. when i read that i immediately thought "win already. speechless liao." second sentence was 2) God knows where you are and 3) God will seek you in due course. okayyy. so that means i'll just have to wait then. sigh. i told bubu about it, bubu laugh at me. bleah.
anyway, disturbia was good. watched the dvd just now while bubu and i ate dinner.
Mm. was just talking to rt when he made me realise a pattern / cycle in my academic "achievements"
kindergarden - did well
primary sch (PSLE) - barely made it
sec sch (O levels)- did well
jc (A levels) - barely made it
poly - did well
uni - barely made it
aiyo damnit. im not sure if the pattern says anything. jeez.