whoa. my last entry was 1 week ago -.-" anyway, as usual been busy at the stupid sucky place. and today i've been told even more bad news. my attachment is gonna be 7day week again. BLOODY HELL. this time im really pissed. the worse thing is there is no one for me to complain to? go to manpower authorities? or supervisor (lecturer)? obviously talking to my external supervisor wont help at all. cos in the first place, if he had any human sense left, he wont even ask us to work 7days a week. okay nvm. i dun feel like saying anything further. dun wan my blood to boil anymore tat it already is. just one sentence - i cant wait for sch to reopen! 4 weeks and 6 days.
my weak & dying muse is finally 67. thx to pig. for helping me lvl and letting me leech. im starting to make some sense in wad roy had said once. i've pretty much taken my muse's lvl-ing as a chore instead of an enjoyment. perhaps it's time to lay off the rose and switch to my neglected xbox. -_-" but i haven buy the games i want to play yet. hmm.
finally an update :P ok....on my fyp. my enriched mice (10 of them) one of the mouse, number 4 aka baby (yf's beloved baby lol) died on sunday T_T it's called baby cos it looks weaker than other mice and smaller too. it's very tame and cute ^-^ at the beginning, it refused to eat food by itself so we had to everyday feed it milk twice a day but then tat day sunday when we went back we suddenly saw it lying there stiff -.-" haiz....gek xim. anyway, we gt a replacement mice :X so it's back to 20 mice for our project; 10 enriched, 10 non-enriched.
oh ya. lemme rant abit abt the 2 fags tat are under the same supervisor as me. ha. why fags? cos they dun deserved to be called guys at all. lol. 1) they complain to their in-charge abt us. they say we take very long lunch breaks, while they only have 1 hr of lunch break. Fact: They lunch at 12pm, and thus have to go up to the lab at 1pm. they see us at the food court at 12:55pm and they complain 'why we still sitting there'. we are still eating becos we start lunch at 12:45. simple. 2) they complain our project 'very' relaxing compared to them. Fact: Hello? when we are busy, do they even know?(they;re at the 6 floor lab while we at b1 lab) i doubt so lor. i dun have to say tat im busy or report to them that i have tons of things to do anyway. besides, the project is they choose themselves. if the project is too heavy duty, it's their own sway luck. ironically, i remember they ever say our project damn boring compared to theirs. Okay lor, damn boring to u...den u shld be happy wif ur project...why complain so much? noisy sia. -_-" 3) they complain we end work earlier than them. Fact: This is the most qi gek one. we end around the same time as them BUT we have to come back on weekends and they dont lor! wth. so u see? gt tis kind of fags ard sia. we nv even compare or make noise abt them, they come and compare and make noise first. sheesh man. i told mom abt tis and mom say pity their girlfriends next time LOL. gt ppl even say 'why singaporean guys nowadays become liddat?' LOL. hear liao oso dunno wanna laugh or cry. seriously, they're 2 of the most UNgentlemanly, calculative, nosy fags i have ever met! urgh. >.> whatever it is, i nt angry at them or wad. cos i din do anything wrong and my conscious is clear so whatever they wanna say abt me, i seriously dun give a damn. i just feel sad for them, and feel sad for the general population of guys in sg. *grins* ^-^
:/ kinda lazy to update nowadays. cos always reach home too tired to do anything except bathe, eat and sleep. lol. alright. today ran the test for the remaining 9 mice and did training for 5 mice. out of the 9 mice, today the number 12 mice (the one nv fail to jump out of the maze) again did its usual thing and me and yf spent SUPER long time to catch it back lol. it's too smart ba. hard to predict where it will run. oh yea, and today animal lab gt fire drill. -.-" waste time leh lol. but so farnie 1, after fire drill gt refreshments de. LOL.
after work went to meet mom at west mall. wah. bought alot of stuff. 1050pm den reach home lol. went to the mayim place to eat. the food is...erm...so-so la.....liek the prawn dumplings though. the ramen there isnt really THAT nice ~_~
haiz. when i start to tell ppl im working 7 days a week, i cant help but feel super depressed. cos it's really like FREE LABOUR lor. haiz. but wad to do. i already ren ming liao. if i dun ren ming i'll just continue to be super depressed. suan le T_T at least my days are super "chong shi". i really feel like i make FULL use of the whole 24hrs lol. time has nv seem more precious and impt. do things oso getting faster liao. haha.
im in living hell and doing ppl's "sai gang" (sheet work) just cos i've gt to wait for my experimental results in order to do my fyp.
ahh..just like tht my weekend gone. sigh. but is okay, had a happy day today :D early morning went dear's house. see him play nba 2oo5. yawnz. so sian the game :X den after tat went to min jiang for dim sum buffet. wow. im impressed. really nice food!!! price quite reasonable oso. only thing, me and dear eat until wanna puke lol. eat too much le...haha. den after tat went taka's kino walk walk den came back le. heh, so tats how i spent my 21st month anniversary wif my pig. simple & pleasant day ^.^ 21st mth....say long, nt long say short nt short. 3 more mths to 2 yrs. wow. O_O
sigh. was toking to zq abt our supervisors. haiz. so sad. i prefer her supervisor's style. everyday see her de. somemore so crappy, lame and friendly. mine is so....urgh. i nv see him everyday and neither does he want to see me everyday. lol. in the 1st week, i only saw him 2-3 times. whereas zq's case, everyday they oso see each other. :\ oh well. haiz. and and....zq's supervisor so much more easy to get along wif. ahhh.......sickening. feel so damn sway. ~_~ gt my first choice but so wad? isnt all tat good after all......
back frm a long day. ~_~ today's supposed to end at 5:30. but me and yf left at 6+. so tiring! somemore we went early today, 9:30am. sheesh. anyway today, yc (our in-charge) gt a course so the whole day we had to "zhi shen zhi mie" lol. haha. anyway morning, go weigh the mice and food, yf go feed our mice for the fyp. den together we did 4 trials of the 5 arm experiments. as usual, quite nervous. and the SAME mouse, the number 12 AGAIN JUMP out. URGH. -.-" den lunch, yc got us lunch :D so we ate there den finished up 1 more trial for the 5arm (behavior test). damn funny. we JUST started first mouse nia, suddenly someone open the door and come in. it was our supervisor. O_O" ok. den he observe abit, ask us how's things and oso ask abt our mice. after awhile he left. den the number 2 mouse jump out LOL. normally wont jump de, but it jumped out. HENG he left ler. cos tat mouse tat jump out, made me and yf run ard the whole room chasing it -_-" lol. i tink if he sees the way we chase after the mouse he sure pengz. lol. nt tat we're torturing the mouse or wad, but is the mouse too fast for us (we too slow for the mouse) so very long den we will catch it back. after catching the mouse and putting it back, me n yf gt into a laughing fit. super funny. cos we both laughing at ourselves. take so long to catch one mouse back. and oso tat one small mouse can make both of us search like crazy lol. yea, den after did finish the 5 trials, had to go run errand for yc. zzz. need to help him buy magnet. run to book store at ttsh, dun have. ran to novena square search whole place, nv sell magnet -_-" den had to go to toa payoh popular. heng there gt sell magnet. den came back, late liao, (5+! by rite 5:30 end work leh! zzz) but still had to perfuse 1 mousey! URGH. den he want me to perfuse. omg. i very slow 1 lor. cos my hands shake like hell lol. anyway, by the time we finished, already 6. bahhh... :/
gt into quite an argument wif pig. haiz. maybe im nt understanding? but haiz. i dunno la. when i flare up, and i tink im right, damn hard to convince me that im wrong. must wait till i cool down liao, slowly tink, den i will forgive and most likely forget whatever happen lol. (i've gt STM.) anyway, he called me cos he din work today, so tot can meet. den he keep asking me where to meet and where to go all tat. when he asked tat time, i couldnt answer, cos i was perfusing the mousey. den when i finally end "work" den i called him and suggested palces to go. after awhile he said cant go liao. like WTH LOR?! one moment say wanna go, 1 moment say cant go. if u cant go, den in the first palce dun say u wanna go. it's like lifting ppl's hope den smashing it on the floor. crap lor. i noe it aint exactly his fault, is the manager's freaking fault. but still....he could have declined and say dun wan to work. but he din....tats wad made me even more pissed. urgh, heck la. over liao, suan le. roy said i shldnt get angry, cos it's nt as though pig gt a choice. i noe la...but still... +_+ nvm. take it tat im damn unreasonable.
okay. have nt been updating for quite long. too tired to update. wake up everyday at 7+, reach nni by 9am. everyday end "work" (fyp) at 6+, reach home at 7+pm. tired like siao. now i already stoning, just woke up from dozing off on the couch. waiting for 11pm to come. watch last exile and shaman king den go slp. zZz. so tired. eyes cannot open.
today, did 1 trial of behavior testing on the 12 mice. sian. one of the stupid mouse crawl into my right sleeve again. kns. yesterday is baby mouse, today is adult mouse. URGH. fan si le. and today number 12 mouse again jump out of the 5arm. den gotta chase it ard the whole room. stupid ~!@#@%#$^$&*. sometimes, when see it run, have tis evil tendency to want to step on it. -_-" cos it's so irritating, keep jumping out den need to chase it. put it back and it jump out again.~$#@!%#%^& also did perfusion today. quite ok but my hands arent steady lol. shake like mad. especially when i anaestasize the mouse...it keep squeaking and want to bite my finger. den keep kicking away my syringe when i try to do a i.p.(intra peritonal injection - inject the stomach area there) -.-" anyway, perfusion is like to drain the blood outta the mouse and inject it wif saline and den fixed buffer to fix it. anyhow, i prefer dead mice more than live ones. getting more and more cold blooded soon lol. now see dead mice or mice blood oso no effect on me liddat lol. see dead mice = can cut up or take brain out. :X but i still HATEmice, if not even more after i came here. :/
anyway, have been really feeling damn regretful, damn depressed these few days, ever since i went for my fyp. the mice is one big worry and source of stress. another is the long hours and MY WEEKENDS!!!! they're ALL burnt! yes, i mean ALL. from now till 22th may, no weekends for me. im a slave of the lab for 7 days a week, for the whole of the 7 weeks. haiz. i guess, life still have to go on. no choice liao. cant quit. just have to try to do my best. very very grateful to my dear pig, for saying the words that i din want to hear but needed to hear. the words sound horrible but i needed to hear them. cos tat made me pick up myself up from the dumps. oh ya, and oso poor pig had to tolerate my awfully nasty temper these few days. :X haiz...oh well...time to go stone infront of telly and wait for anime. haven watched bleach 26 and naruto 129 yet. :\
okie. let's start wif today. took an mrt down to novena. gave 1hr grace but then i reached in 30mins. damn early. den went to find the building. went there, speak to supervisor. den go lab. dr ma ask us go lab see microscope, count neurons in spinal cord. aiyo. so sian sia AT FIRST. (remember is really AT FIRST) see until i wanna doze off. den finally can eat lunch liao. woot. ttsh really nice. so many shops and things to eat :X food court, polar puffs & cakes, starbucks ^.^.... anyway after lunch, went back to lab learn how to induce epileapsy in mice. the lab person (yq) injected 10 mice as demo. den later he bought in 4 mice (females and nt normally used for experiments, just for us to try), one for EACH of us (me, yf and 2 other guys frm np oso) to try. alamak. so try lor. aiyo!!! i took so long to scruff. den when i scruff already, i dare nt inject. *recalls tst time i inject the mousey during immuno pract and i poked its blood vessel & it started bleeding T_T* den anyway yq guide me la so ok, in the end..I DID IT!!!! but hor, the whole time, from catching the mice to injecting it, my whole body was shaking. REALLY SHAKING lor. aiyo. so darn scared lol. one of the guys scruffed the mouse too hard till it died. lol!! :X sry...i noe the mouse damn poor thing but...still farnie...:X anyway, after the injection of the first chemical have to wait 20-25 mins den can inject 2nd chemical. the 2nd chemical i inject, diao. made it bleed alittle >.< ! den after tat have to wait for it to go into shock. yes. go into shock. super obvious. after awhile, u see the poor mice shaking as if it's on ecstasy. den it'll go mad. den start shaking again. and shld continue to shake. if it goes into shock and dies, nt successful (i.e. cant be studied and used as a model). so waited again. the other guy's mouse went into shock and died. yifang's mouse oso. my mouse le? too little dosage. go into shock liao den recover -.-" den bo bian after very long liao, still no shock, so had to boost it alittle more. WAH. directly after injecting booster shock, OMG. the reaction uber big & uber fast. it started to go mad. den jump super high. EH seriously it was high! the height it reached was >5cm above the container!!! the highest i ever see a mouse jump. and i xia dao. lol. i let out a scream. :X den after tat the mouse started shaking non-stop. yq's 10mice leh? 9 out of 10 died. aiyo >.< den the remaining 1 just continued shaking. and hor...super poor thing. they will shake until they tear. like cry le....wah...very ke lian leh. haiz. den after tat we learn how to extract the brain out from the spinal cord intact! wah. super hard sia. den yq ask who want to try -_-" one of the guys went to try. the rest of us laugh like siao. lol. cos he keep poking the brain. lol. okie...so tat was my first day at nni :/ dunno tml how...haiz. *worried*
grr..tmd. si starhub. my internet explorer can surf but my 2 most impt things cannot click. wad the shyt. msn & rose cant click. KNS! call the helpline no ppl answer -.-" *FUMES*
but piggy dear cheered me up so much! he came over to clementi at 10pm to have dinner wif me =^.^= den when i went to meet him at the mac bus stop there, i haven even reach there gt someone suddenly appear beside me and hold my hand. lol~! haha~ dear so cute :D ate dinner at the interchange bus stop den dear walked me home. played tic-tac-toe at house downstairs the playground -_-" lol. -_-" cos dear tink i stupid. sure lose in tic tac toe but he is wrong. no one ever wins me in tic-tac-toe. lol. or rather. i never lose at tic-tac-toe. pls lor. who will lose? so ez to draw the game, how to lose? lol.
came home, decided to call the maxonline ppl again. wow. tis time, less than 3min gt ppl pick up liao. tink just now i really sway. ring so long, call so many time, no ppl -_-" kns. but anyway the person cant help me cos he cant find any problems yet :( but im VERY sure it's their side. cos tis morning nia cant work liao. mom used comp den she wondering why my msn nv pop up :/ sigh. so sad....my muse!!! T_T ok la i go slp liao. tired. nitez. and......eheheh......miss my pig~ :X
yesterday, fell asleep crying. was thinking abt some things (r/s stuffs) den felt so hopeless. so broke down. haiz. anyway, by popular demand, i'll type the question here. ok. jason was asking me that when couples quarrel until very jia liat and the thought of breakup comes to mind, what will they do? then he was saying that if tat ever happen to me, the question i shld ask myself is...'can i go on wif life without my other half being on my side?' ... so..theres the question...
my muse is finally 61, but still 9 lvls away from my 2nd job. zZz. trying to save up for angel wings now. bahhh...tml i'll be starting fyp at NNI. 1 hr travel time. OH NOES~~~~ -,-" tat'll be like piggy going to work everyday. :/ but i'd hope it'll be more like me travelling to my bedok workplace last time.... gotta slp liao. nitez.
HAIZ!!! Finally exams are over~ but...fyp starts. sianz. it's to novena (ttsh) everyday for me. :( the rest of the class all going to different places, some iap and others fyp places. hmm. so fast yr 3 liao. :/
met up wif jason kor today. he was super duper late! urgh. wanted to strangle him!!! :X anyway he treated me to dinner. and i chose a nan chi place cos i was freaking darn hungry and too lazy to walk anywhere far. so went to dine at cafe cartel. zZz. ice peach tea taste like cough syrup, mushroom soup taste like chicken soup, steak look uncook :/ aiyo. disasterous. but the company was good (like always). as usual we talked talked talked. abt stuff like future plans, business, relationships etc. abt the biz-ness bit, he made me quite inspired such tat im gonna dig out a book from mom's collection to read. heh heh. as for the relationship bit, sigh. he posed one question which i nv really gt to tink much of. i dunno whether issit im afraid to find the outcome of my thoughts or im just want to avoid that question and dun wan to tink so much. urgh. whatever. im falling sick soon liao. better go slp. nitez. shall continue tml.