i escaped outta the freaking viridian ro0m! w0otz! :x wif help frm d0ggie. heh heh... wHeE...but so eerie the ending. *shivers* k la..go rest already. :/
today obc paper. ok lor. but i tink write too much liao. kns. >__< finally can throw away C3 cycle, Glycolysis, toopid Kreb CYCLE (TCA cycle) and Electron Transport Chain (ETC). TOopiD pyruvate, glucose, lipid, organic chem! all so mafan! :P glad it's over. wHEe......
juz now qiang pasted the link for me to the viridian room - sequel to crimson room. goodness, compared to viridian room, crimson room is chicken like hell man. im stuck at viridian room T__T stuck, stuck stuck!!!! stuck for 4hrs liao leh! damn. i already get everything le except cant seem to get the combination right? i can put the cd case and photo frame together at the shelf oso but dunno which picture to put into the picture frame and what to do wif the green box? diao. anyone can help me? :x
2nd post for the day? or shld i count tis as another morning le? finally cleared up the 'quarrel' le. *phew* hApPy~ keke.
+ better keep ur promise k, pig xD!! i'll try to nt eat any of the fancy stuff fer 1mth :x +
3 more days to OBC and im still slacking here. sigh. really need to cultivate the right mood to study. so hard to achieve that though. there's so many unneccessary things that's on my mind also, sometimes it's hard to block them out. but well, i will settle them after 7th may.
after gym yesterday, accompanied mom to shop for mattress. went to this small shop at west coast den was looking around when i looked into the shop and saw 2 dogs playing and running around. so cute >_< 2 shi tzu - 1 puppy and 1 dog. mother & child. awww...den when mom and i went in, the both of them ran to me...hehehe ^^ den played wif them alittle! lol...the puppy super energetic man @_@ keep jumping and barked a few times. small dog but loud noise. sheesh. the mother was quieter, din bark at all. ^^ i like quiet dogs. lol den the mother kept chewing my shoelaces. tEe hEe~
Whee~ My day was not too bad I guess. Went to dear's place awhile. Watched him play gb. Very cute sia :x but nah not gonna play. Cos it's SOOOOO like worms and I dun really like worms. ~_~ Anyway after that went to orchard eat ramen. Oh gosh. Imma going be sO So SOo sick of jap food soon. >__< yesterday ate jap food, today ate jap food again. urgh. Anyway, after tat walked around orchard. Everywhere so many ppl, sianz. Den after tat dear go chalet le ~_~ So good....sigh...
tml is the deadline to submit vb project. we added stuffs, hopefully will make our project more interesting. really in no mood to update this properly. today's a really bad/sad day. firstly, it's been one mth already. yes, i've come to accept it, was still griefing 1 mth ago. But well. still feel sad though. next, haven been able to start studying at all. cant focus on the impt things. been thinking alot. really dun wish to think. and today, yet another thing really push me down down down. sigh. nvm. dun wan to talk abt it. i know im bottling up. but i dun care. anyway was late for 6:45 show at cine. took a cab down to orchard. wont normally take cab. den reach there at 645, but show already started. so i was late and had to see mom's 'lian se'. fine. the show, Passion of the Christ, was .... i dunno how to say. Basically i din really understand, i could only get some parts. sad to say, cos im nt a christian so i dunno the true meaning behind everything, but i did cry alot during the show. i dunno y?...came back home, again see mom's 'lian se'. dunno wads up with eveyrthing today la. damn pissed off but i'm trying not to get mad. den watched ami3. wTh. fantasia's in the bottom 3? wad the hell is wrong wif this world man. whatever. if she's out next week, i'm boycotting the show. IT SUCKS BIG TIME.
feel so troubled now. wish i can concentrate. but my mind's in a mess. tears im holding back, pain my heart is feeling. even when music is playing, everything feels so distant and unreal.
if only i had chose not to choose, back in july last yr. i needed a break back den. i shld hav taken a break from this game called 'love'. but i din. and now wad? the game wants to quit on me. yeah, so now im forced to call it quits. feel so terrible now. jie is right, im too soft hearted le. i shld hav juz chose not to choose. then all this wont have even happen. now, good lor. turn out like this. serve me right for not thinking carefully. dunno how to continue...end here.
wHEe~~ nice day it turned out to be...though in the morning made dear abit angry :x .... where was i? Oh yeah. I DRAGGED myself back to sch for the toopid CATS thingie at 2pm. Den discuss the presentation den go present le. Ok. So started w/o wm cos he had classes till 4. Suddenly present halfway, they suddenly ask "Where's your other member? mIssing ar?" Then wah kao. Super pissed off liao lor. Kns. 1_They din specify properly say that ALL members need to be present. 2_They jolly well knew that our CATS is on thursday yet they scheduled the presentation on tuesday. Do they have brains or what? They think we come to school to develop the artefact only mah? 3_Dont they know that when someone presents, you're supposed to pay attention (or at least act like you're paying attention)? Dont they know basic manners even?
Anyway...so no choice. Had to wait for wm to end class. So actually first group to present at 3pm became last grp. Sianz. So rotted at a part of IH and waited lor. HAHa. But guess wad. We had fun sia. We played with A's and B's hps, both with video recording ability. Wah den we started going mad, recording and "producing" our own "shows". wahahahha laugh until stomachache. Damn funny lor. Haha....den go crazy recording and 'filming'. LOl. Then Y and I attempted to play hopscotch oso. Hahaha...super stupid but damn funny.
Then at 4pm, Wm came le. we went outside the meeting room, where the presentation's supposed to be held. We stood outside and waited lor. Then, me and Yq were talking abt vb projects when max lam walked into IH. O_O!!! Tio stun :X den A, B, Yq and me chatted with him abit lor. FINALLY our turn to present le. So presented then they asked us some questions. Wah. The more they asked, the more I want to bian them. Really want to take shoe and throw at them leh. Suan le. HECK CARE! OVER LER!
After that, me,Yq,A and Wm went clementi to eat jap food. Went to try the ulu jap eatery. Woo. Turned out not bad ar. Keke. Fun fun. Now that CATS finally over, abit miss working together as a grp. Still can remember thursday always go there and lame together de. LOL. haha....hope A successfully organises the outing after exam. Heh Heh. So far we gone out as a group twice. But always 1 person missing. First time was Wm, today was B. Bleahz.
Somehow, everytime I speak to Q, I always learn something. Maybe bcos he's older (21 this year) and though our backgrounds kinda different, he still never fails to enlighten me. Okay, maybe enlighten isnt exactly the right word to use. But it's kinda cool in the sense, everytime I talk to him, he always says something to make me think abt. Like the other time, when i just mentioned abt suicides, he said something which make me think twice abt suicides. And today, again he said something which made me think abt my temper and how I'm gonna ctrl it. ....somemore, his english isnt really very good and though sometimes I cant catch wad is he trying to get at (he has to repeat) eventually the idea he puts across really makes me think. hMmm....must talk to him more often...
pract test today, ok lor. now supposed to be preparing exams, but feel so slackish! >__< last nite went to eat mac. wanted to eat waffle cone, cos sweet tooth acting up ^^". So i ordered one twist :D The 2 guys serving 2 counters both look damn young, both look younger than me :X den when the guy gave me the waffle cone hor, i O_O!!! the ice cream cone so huge meh? *blinks* Den i heard the other guy, his colleaque was like saying "WAH KAO! WHY SO BIG? YOUR FRIEND AR?" den i was like still blur blur, did he mean me? haha. Then the guy who served me responded with a "Aiyah, dun care la" Thats when i really took a good look at the icecream..woo huge ^^" hahaha so thanked him :X (the guy who served me) hEhehe...so in the end i had to eat the ice cream b4 the burger cos the icecream too big will melt -_-, den end up my burger tasted funny :/ ........so siaNnnNNnnNnn arrrr.......later still need to go back sch for CATS presentation. Crappy thing. WASTE TIME! i rather slp :D
today, was awoken at 9am by mom's nagging. :x she DRAGGED me to the gym wif her. Zzz so go gym play lor. run treadmill, cycle, lift weights (light light de la..2kg only nia) and some other stuffs la...haha quite fun..but really very tiring..tml sure muscle ache damn bad ~_~ afetr tat, went to eat brunch, den went imm walk walk...nt bad...today is quite a nice day. ^^ very 'chong shi' heh tml gotta go sch for vb presentation and CATS meeting again. sian tml gt the CATS presentation. zzz haven finish the artefact yet, i forgot to buy the thing needed...die >_<
~_~ everything's back to normal again. sorta. bei ma xing le. or have i? hope so. Perhaps i really give up too easily. too tough = dun do liao. haiz, kenot liddat de. and why am i so dependent on ppl & oso always make ppl worry. -_- haiz. whole mind's a mess now. tml still need to go gym. better go to bed le. nite.
feel really down on morale, spirits, everything. that something still wont get resolved, i've tried to solve it, but it wont get solved. other things are already bad enough. but nothing compared to this. worse thing, so darn tired, dun even feel like sharing. so far only 1 person knows. cos i feel he is in the same position, well almost, as me and would understand wad im going thru. will and di wanted to jio me into game. totally bo mood. sigh. the vb project's bugging me, the cats presentation is bugging me, and this thing....urgh. really heartache. i hate it. wish someone would just stab me in the heart, den release me of the pain once and for all. gosh, i sound suicidal. sigh. maybe i need slp, but i really no mood to slp. argh. this is so agonising.
wah. finally the madness week going to end liao. phew. hmm. tuesday went to run 2km..nearly die...so tiring leh ~_~ somemore so long nv exercise, suddenly run, really wan my life. today went to swim. shiok man ^^ but oso super tiring, very breathless, no stam. hopefully can train till swim 1 lap non stop. now swim 1 lap i have to stop 3 times. >_< lao ya leh!
Quick one!
today, got back cell bio. woot. happy wif results. checked thru paper. alamak. minus mark cos never put some words and 1 mcq wrong. Bleah, think back..can get full marks if careful. haha :x itp test? well, totally trashed. I NEED A RETEST ARBO I GOING TO FLUNK ITP. but then again, to hell with it. dun care. it dashed every bit of my confidence on my programming ability. suan le. crap shit. was worried sick in the evening cos mom wasnt back by 9. waited for her from 7 to 9. @_@ din eat. den she called at 9plus, ask me eat liao mah. she went to the gym, i forgot. >_< okay. nite. physio tml. go go go!
FREAKING IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU'RE NOTHING BUT A DAMN COWARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CALL YOURSELF A GUY? YOU THINK THE ONLY WAY TO SOLVE PROBLEMS IN YOUR LIFE IS TO END YOUR LIFE? WHAT HAVE I BEEN TELLING YOU? HAVE I BEEN SPEAKING GREEK TO YOU ALL THIS WHILE? YOU SAY YOU ARE GETTING MORE AND MORE DEPRESSED EACH DAY, I TOLD YOU ALREADY SINCE YOU KNOW YOU'RE SUFFERING FROM DEPRESSION WHY DUN YOU JUST FREAKING GO SEEK PSYCHIATRIC HELP. IT WONT HURT YOU TO TRY RIGHT, DAMNIT! SO MANY DEPRESSION SUFFERERS SEEK HELP AND ARE STILL CARRYING ON WITH LIFE RIGHT? DO YOU THINK YOUR LIFE IS SO UNWORTHY THAT YOU HAVE TO GO AND END IT? IF SO, HOW DO YOU EXPLAIN THOSE PATIENTS FIGHTING CANCER AND STILL STRUGGLING, THEIR LIVES ARE MORE HARD AS COMPARED TO YOURS OK. BUT YOU DONT SEE THEM KEEP TALKING ABT DYING, DO YOU? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU MAN! haiz......whatever. It's your life, you choose what you want to do it, I give up. I wash my hands off you liao.
made 2 discoveries today. 1) My mom used to be in her school choir WAY back in secondary school. O_O!!! She never told me till today sia. I forgot what I said that made her say she used to be in choir oso...WAHHHHHHHHH 19 years together with her...now den I find out...wow~ 2) My "missing" blue pens yuan lai is she kope de! >_< Yeeeeee no wonder both my pens go missing.......hai wo only left one miserable black pen in my pencilcase @_@ ...Was searching for my stuff, suddenly i peeked into her pencilcase den found both my "long-lost" pens T____T
Haiz...nearly had nervous breakdown last night man. crap ~_~ lucky gt dear there to comfort me. He very ke lian, everytime I stress he sure tio scold/yell at and gana the wrath of my temper ^^".... Anyway, The Mad Week is going to come le, but I just have to try to take it in my stride. Must remember that Im not the only one going thru it and I have to go thru it ... so.....just take it as it comes.
b0red now. Fever still hasn't gone down. Throat still very swollen. Feels like a plate stuck in my throat. ~_~ Chris say his MO (medical officer) normally put people with fever on drips. *Ouch* Used icedpack to cool myself le. Took temperature le, still high. 38.5degrees. Sigh. Tml gotta go down to city hall settle Dad's stuff again. And it's me and me alone, as usual. Haiz.
Originally came into BMS cos wanted to go for MLT. In the end, didnt. -__-" Din know the environment there is so bad, so dull, and can u imagine the lab tech actually worse slippers? Like H-E-L-L-O? In school, if u dun wear covered shoes, no need to do lab le :X Then small, crampy working space. Cant drink water often, cos got lots of virus flying around in the air so if wanna drink must go staff lounge there drink. (Possible death from dehydration? :X) Everyday handle blood, urine, stool samples. Centrifuge, test, centrifuge. ~_~ And, get this. The worse thing, the one i PHEAR most de----NEED TO PRACTISE TAKING BLOOD FOR BLOOD TEST.!!!!!! @_____@ EEEEEEPPP~~~ WOAH. *raise white flag le* This I really really cant ok. See the needle only I want to faint le, still ask me to help partner take blood for blood test? And worse, partner supposed to take blood from me? Later scarli take blood half way "Oh...so sorry....the needle broke ler....how huh ^^lll " ". . . . . ."
Ok. Been having many weird dreams lately. Dunno why? Last night I dreamt I was at some place ar den hor got this dog, that looks damn dirty. By dirty I mean filthy. Aiyo then I want to siam it. But it keep coming to me. Then I was wear 3-quarts. Then the dog still come and disturb me, wipe its filthy paws on my knees! EWWWWW. Funny thing was hor, its paws were coated with raspberry jam. @_@ Diao. I like raspberry jam but........Anyway then the owner of the dog quickly grab it den i ran to the nearby tap to wash my legs. Then suddenly I could feel something again touch the back of my legs, I thought is the dog again leh, so I juz instinctively use my hands to defend myself. Then I woke up. And found myself holding my mom's hand down and the other hand was like twisting her hand. Oops. Lol I think she got a shock oso, why my reaction so huge. She wanted to wake me up but she gt a shock instead xD....super weird dream o_O
Uhh...Guess wad. Fell sick again. Dang. Fever 39.1 degrees. Sigh. Stupid tonsils acting up again. Maybe I should seriously consider removing them or eating less heaty stuff. Darn. Wanted to start my exercise programme but den fell ill even b4 i could start. Bahh.
Lots of work and tests coming, dun really want to think abt them, taking it as they come. CCAs, well, too bad, I'm gonna push them all away le. Good thing this week got wednesday and friday off. Can rest more.
Today went to get new hp plan. Was contemplating whether to change phone or not. Took damn long to decide sia. In the end, din buy new phone. Lol. Cos the phone I originally wanted, N7200 too expensive. Then I saw N6230. Wah, to me this phone's features r0x man.! Really really wanted to get it, almost/nearly got it. KEke. But so damn expensive ~_~ If i trade in my t610 still $478! @_@ Cant afford. So suan le. My new number really nice, hehe really like it alot :X Start wif 8 de :P
Haiz. Really need to save money le. I really splurge too often, too much. But then ah, I always cant control one. >_<" So long nv go ktv, so long nv watch movie...eep. I want to catch The Passion of The Christ. Wonder who to find to go with me... :/
Today, went to sch. Din listen to obc lecture at all cos was busy studying for the obc test :X Den went to sit at the benches near lecture 45. Suddenly got a wasp flying around there ~_~ I told angie den angie went "OMG OMG!!!" Then all 4 of us ran off. lol. Is like almost immediately 4 of us siam. hahaa.. Actually zq and yf dunno wad was happening but they just ran cos they saw angie panic, lol! Then i ran cos they all ran. :/ zao zhi dao dun tell them abt the wasp, hehe. Obc test was ... dunno how to describe. I cant believe it. The only topics that angie studied all came out. Kns! LOL she only studied 3 and all 3 out of the 8 came out. WAHHH >_<" Li hAi!
After obc test, went to TCC to eat with angie. Zq and yf discuss their CATS skit den dun wan to come wif us :( Anyway went TCC@kiliney road, had french fries (with cajun spices), clam chowder, beef lasagne. WAH Damn NicE loR ^^!! Then walked over to taka despite the heavy rain. Walked ard at taka, went to find hats. Saw one really nice hat, white hat wif small green stripes - 27.50 Then went to buy some chicken satay den went mos burger drink iced peach tea ^^ Then sit there and tok tok till 6:30pm. Was walking along wisma atria underpass when suddenly saw a familiar figure walk out of hang ten. Hehe. It was that stupid frog legs aka JASON!!! HAha so long no see him le~~~ So talked to him abit lor. He's leaving for Brunei soon, Ns mah. Then he said actually just now he saw me earlier at mos burger there and tried to call me but i no hp mah. Yea..so...liddat lor...anyway was really nice to see him again, hope when he gets back from brunei faster organise s61 outing!!!!!!
Came back liao still eat mom's fish head bee hoon. So stuffed after tat man. Then carl called so talked talked to him on the phone. Dunno why this whole week keep on seeing him in school, EVERYDAY to be exact. Different course yet everyday of this school week, somehow, somewhere in school, we will see each other @_@ Sway man :P lol. Anyway, he seems to be feeling better? I hope so. Tml's virtuoso XI, need to do ushering, haven iron my white blouse yet. Somemore tml have to go sch at 9am to try to finish up the artefact. WAH SIAN MAN. Zzz