My antivirus fixed whatever was preventing me from launching my sealonline. So now it's finally fixed. But...haha. Lost the interest already :P Instead, went to try Lineage 2. Oh my. Graphics damn nice, but damn lag ~_~ Camera view too goggy. Slight click and move of right mouse click only the camera off focus or zoom in too much le...@_@ Played abit of NFSU. Hmm. Seems super UNlag on my comp :X Like damn easy to control leh. WAHHAHAHAHAHHAA. Suddenly find RPGs abit boring. Like sian sian lor...keep whacking slashing monsters. Get items. Zzz. Think time for me to do what i normally wont do...RACE CARS!!! WAHAHHAHAHA :X
Friday is dreaded OBC test ~_~ and NUH interview. Dunno want to opt out of MLT or not. Heard the conditions at the labs damn horrid. Urgh. Too bad din go n see it for myself, if not, I tink sure damn easy to make this decision de. If it is super CMI, den sure dun go liao. If still bearable, den try my luck for interview. Sigh. Came into BMS cos of MLT. Now so disappointed. :/
Like mom predicted, the score was 2-1 Japan. YEEE. She de yi again. Predict correctly. YEEEEE. Hmm. Japan din perform very well. Think here weather too hot, they cant take it. @_@ On the other hand, surprisingly Singapore's goal was quite power sia. Din expect it leh, quite sweet~! Yeah! hahaa. :P
Day was alright. Went to school, blah blah blah. After sch, dear pei me go orchard see see hp plans. Now cant decide b/w Singtel Classic 100 or M1 Suntext or Starhub PowerChat 100. :/ Shld i get N-gage? :X But no camera ar.
Been listening to the violin pieces XL sent me. Really nice. haiz. A fren just told me he is suffering from depression. I thought it wasnt that serious, till he told me abt it just now. Dunno how to help him. :< sigh......
Too tired to type le.....~_~ nite.
Thought I was feeling better, but nah. Life had to kick me again, at the place where it hurts bad. Now I'm feeling really down all over again. Worse, now it's double the dose of heartache. Last week was already bad enough, and today? Another shot of heartache. Two lethal shots in 6 days. Do I deserve any of this? I certainly do not think so, yet it IS so.
The other 3 mei nu-s (Angie, Zq & YF) are really sweet. They got me a card and this really cute furry stuffed toy flower ^^" to cheer me up. Aww, really very surprised and touched. Really din expect T_T
As expected, hp line gt cut off. Haven apply for new line yet cos haven decided on which plan. So feel kinda cut off from everyone right now, but it's alright. Doesnt really matter anyway, probably is better this way. Then my laptop now giving me problems, something is seriously lagging the whole thing. The light which indicates that the hdd is busy can keep shining for 10 minutes plus. Gosh. Dunno wad is wrong. Need to defrag? Or is some program causing the problem? Haiz. Nothing really goes well. Even technology refuses to work properly for me.
Was coming home from sch, alighted at the bus stop nearer to my house, the one near Dad's old place. Instinctively, I tried to spot the unit. I've only stepped into there 4 times. 1st time was when to view the house before he bought it; 2nd time was to help him clean up the house when he just bought it; 3rd time was for dinner where Dad cooked and ...the 4th....was 3 days ago.............//
*I know I nv did much for you, in fact only made you more miserable. Conversely, U did everything you could to make me happy and I was happy. But why now, we're stuck yet again? At the same problem? Or has it dragged so long already, just that I didnt realise*
So - it's just me, and me alone. Maybe it's best that I just disappear from the face of this earth.
Mood seems to be getting better today, although still kinda :< when i tink abt it. Today's there's an article in the papers abt the writer's nephew ending his life at the young age of 15. Sigh. Anyway today did absolutely nothing, just spent the whole day talking to ppl. Talked to Q; learnt that he oso lost someone close to him, 3 yrs back. Then talked very long with XL. Wah qi si wo le, he's damn good at mind games, which i fail terribly. Then he buwee me ar~~~ haha. But is ok la, just get to know him better. He's really unlike his peers; his thinking is very mature and different from others. Though he 'scares' me alot, even after talking to him so long, still damn 'scared' of him. Brr. :X Talked too much den today wanted to chiong NFSU one...den kns...tok until so late no time play ~_~ k la...go slp le....nitey.
Am slightly feeling better, dun wish to brood on it anymore. Just sometimes still cant help it though. Still haven been able to laugh much though. Anyway, settled some of the stuffs in the morning at comcentre. *sigh of relief* After that went to mom's office. Go "play" at her office. No la, went there to kill time. Then took a bus back to clementi den to NP. Reached school, went to clubhouse. Alamak. Ed say no practise today. -_-" Ok fine, so went to hi rehearsal (cos i tot there was one; my x instructor told me there was one; but dunno why no one tell me?) Then finally decided, din feel like going so went off. Then sms-ed fren. DIAO. NO REHEARSAL. WAH KAO. Bei pian >_<" Arbo could have stayed in mom's office till she knock off den can go out eat lunch T__T. But nvm la, went over to dear's place after sch. Went to play abit NFSU (Need For Speed Underground). Tio force 1 :X But in the end ok la, quite alright la. Music is nice :P but i'm terrible at driving o_O!!! Keep on banging the lamp posts and street signs and lights then dear keep on laughing at me cos i keep crashing the car against the sides :X But I'm damn good at avoiding oncoming traffic! HA, beat that! :P
Some quiz result.
http://www.funstun.com/categories/fun/are-what-you-eat/index.cfm
You are a sensitive person and often find yourself daydreaming about your past and future. You are quite conservative and the values that your parents and teachers instilled in you still play an important part in your decision making.
You're very careful and circumspect in all matters but you won't face any problems until they actually happen. Also you're a kind and sensitive person.
You are vigorous yet gentle. You appear to be mysterious to those who don't know you very well because you don't often reveal your feelings. You like to socialize and are popular among your peers.
You are logical, smart and inventive. Sometimes you are too cold and selfish.
--- Eh. It's actually >85% accurate. Freaky.
Going thru a very different phase in my life right now. Still not really ready to say anything much yet. For those who know, really thankful for u all being there for me, helping me pass this difficult time in my life. Esp. my dear, mh. Sometimes when i feel like falling apart and cant handle the things, he is always there to support me and oso hear me vent my anger and frustrations :X Sometimes, it really feels so hard to carry on, but I know I must be strong, must accept things as they are. Also, must stand up for myself. In short, now i've pretty much gotten over being sad. Instead the anger is now kicking in, cos i'm kinda stuck in deep shit, stuck in the middle, in a position where i'd have to figure out how to get out, though this situation isnt wad i chose to be in, neither did any of my actions caused this. It's the result of someone close, yet now i have to bear all the burden. All i have to do now is to get on with my life, let those who are supposed to settle the things do their job and oso not to get bullied by them. Have been really damn stupid, letting them push the job to me, letting a TEENAGER take the rap. WTH. These ppl really sickening, irresponsible and have no consideration for others. In fact, I'm not 'others'. I'm their relative, their niece. And they, as adults, have the cheek and heart to even treat me like that. Nvm, doesnt matter, even if their conscience doesnt get the better of them, the results of their actions will eventually catch up with them. I must be strong in order to overcome this. Though i still cry very often these days, but I decided i shall tear no more. I shall save the energy to stay strong and outsmart them. They want to push their responsibilites to me right? Well, let's see how they'll handle it if i push back. I guess this shall be a lesson learnt. No matter what life wants to throw at me, no matter how tough the life can get, I'm not even gonna tink abt crossing the line, till my time is really up. I do admit, I used to have some of those thoughts, but now, after this, those thoughts are at the back of my mind; im gonna throw those thoughts far far away, into oblivion.
Really dunno how to update yesterday's entry. It's now 0738hrs. School doesnt start till 1200hrs for me today. Fell asleep at 0230 yesterday, have been wide awake since 0630. Cant sleep. And cant seem to do anything right. Just closed the iE when I haven even type finish.
Yesterday WAS supposed to be a happy day, although I did felt kinda sick in the morning and left home late. However, yesterday was a day like no other; it was supposed to be happier than usual. As usual, attended classes. All was well, even during the CATS I din feel pek chek or anything, like I normally would. Went for strings after sch. Whole gang frm bms+bio walked the super long but dry way to clubhouse; so many ppl can go gang fight le. Reached clubhouse, had dinner at canteen 1 den went to practise. Vp taught us yesterday, but mostly is basics. Like how to hold the bow and violin. He made us hold and support the violin with our chins, shoulders and necks only. -_-" Kinda hard at first but after awhile it's ok just that neck very suan ~_~ Then talked to him alittle, got to know him alittle better so now not that stress when see him =.=" After strings, went to meet dear at lib. Poor zhu waited for 3hrs @_@ Asked him to go home liao, he dun wan :/ *gan dong* So went bukit timah hawker center for dinner. Had carrot cake,mutton soup and hokkien mee; all the yummy stuffs. All was well till I received a call from my uncle. He was looking for my mother. Then I realised something was amiss. So I called mom and told her. As usual, mom was calm and cool so I brushed off my insecurities then as well. Till I reached home, I realised my worries and doubts at first were right. And something unexpected really happened, which made me damn sad yet damn angry oso. Dunno how to continue......................Really dunno......Time seems to be crawling right now; seconds like minutes, minutes like hours, hours like days.........Everything seems so surreal but in reality is all too real. Though there are alot of things that I'm still uncertain abt the situation and although I'm really afraid to learn the truth abt it, the thing that is certain is already a big enough blow to me..... Shall write more as and when I'm able to.
Woke up, went to ghim moh for brunch. Came back and slacked infront of the lappy. :X So can consider that I did absolutely nothing the whole day lol~ Tummy feeling uneasy these 2 days, dunno why. Eat too much? Or is my gastric acting up again >_<" Anyway, kinda excited abt AOR - Age Of Renaissance - coming soon to ept!!! Oh man, so excited~ lol cant wait to age my stuffs...urgh but no transparo ~_~ Nvm, can slowly hunt. lalalala...whEe....hApPy~
Woke up at 12 today, went to sch at 1 for violin. Urgh. Still cant stand the sound leh. Cant play properly yet. Really still sound like "sa ji" = killing of chickens. Sheesh. Nvm, must practise more! >_<" And although left shoulder and hands still ache, not as bad as last time le. Heh...
Dunno wad is wrong wif my SEALONLINE. URGH. SO PEK CHEK U NOE! Grr. Installed it on dear's pc. CAN INSTALL, CAN PLAY. Den why mine cant? Still have the stupid launching problem!!! Irritating man -_-"
Just watched Resident Evil on tv for the 2nd time. As usual, much nicer as a game :X ...Today went to catch The Eye 2. BAH. Big disappointment. I actually yawned during the show and din really cover my eyes that much as I expected. Really sian. Plot is totally flat, boring, lousy! Scary parts oso nt really THAT scary. Haiz, disappointment!
Finally lvl-ed my archer to 63. Freaking lag today man. And I still cant understand wads up wif my sealonline. It suddenly worked last night, but due to updating of their servers, couldnt play. Then today, again cant launch, back to square one. I've been trying to fix the damn thing for almost 2 weeks now, time to give up but then...urgh. Stubbornness I guess.
Wondering has my interest for the violin prove to be yet another one of my three minute fevers. Regretably, I'd have to say it's becoming more and more of a 'yes'. Sigh. Seems that I enjoy having more time on my hands than practising on it. Urgh. How? Drop again, like I dropped so many other things in my life due to my laziness? It was the same with piano, swimming, drawing...bleah bleah bleah. So many that I cant even remember. Swimming - I learnt on my own eventually, Drawing - I totally never get to touch nowadays but I still love and appreciate it alot. Piano - However, cannot say I din regret not continuing. Ah. Already so many things I gave up in my life, must really learn to 'stick' to things and dun say give up so easily.
Today was a nice day. One of the best days I felt for a long time. :P Why? Cos the day was relaxing, unstressful and I got to drink nice, chilled, rich milo :D and had nice teriyaki chicken sandwich. The taste of mayo and lettuce and toasted bread alone totally melts me. ^^"
Came back from sch, played pt. WAH. LAG. Nearly die alot of times, heng there was kor protecting me when I got hit. I usually dun need anyone with me in d4, just that this time the lag was so bad, I tink the SG could have even killed me. (The lag is so bad, ur screen freezes, so u cant move/see, when it unfreezes, u kissing the floor liao X_X) Really tink my archer's gonna make a comeback. Now that I have my own AS FMA 4.8 ABS....!!!!!! T___T so gan dong!!! All thanks to kor ^^ Dunno how I gonna repay him...heh anyway any knight spec items I find will be his :P yay...hahaha......lalallalalala..HaPpiE~~~ Cant wait to age my fma/sagi/wing shield when aor comes out. My poor sealonline still cant work T_T but nvm, since now gt that classic burning passion for pt again...MUahhahaha wad a way to put it :X
Something sian - Tml gonna go innohub develop the thing again. URgh. REALLY REGRET OK. I really regret agreeing to develop the stupid thing, wasting so much time/effort/money on something which is not impt. Ah, whatever, Im juz gonna fu yan the whole thing. :P
HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZ THE SEALONLINE....it just now suddenly can work...but made my lappy unstable...so i restart, den afetr tat cant liao. Crap. Toying with my feelings....T___TNot been updating lately, cos yeah...guess wad, fell sick again. Now I dun even bother telling or complaining or saying anything abt it. Just simply damn heck can? Given up already. Seems like nothing I do can prevent myself from falling sick again. Maybe I do really have some serious illness brewing in me. I have these thoughts of walking home from school one day and dropping dead. Eh, but then that's bad ah, would sure scare the daylights out of the passerby. I know! Best is never waking up the next morning. hurhur.
Last night, I went to bed at 1130. Went to fiddle with my phone though. Deleted like 40 contacts cos I seriously, no matter how hard I try, cant remember who they were. Yea, so basically I went through my whole phonelist and realised what my best fren said many years ago actually is making sense now. She said as a person gets older, his/her friends get lesser. Or at least those that can really connect with you well. Bingo man. So true. I guess it's cos distance between them becomes further and oso cos some individuals dun want to make new friends. It is tiring. Hmm. =/
Suddenly quite regretful for typing that first para. But hey, u cant blame someone who's running a slight fever and feeling down for writing something liddat right :X Bleah. Off to eat yummy dinner Mom prepared ^^
Been really busy at the beginning of the week. Monday sch from 8am-8pm, cos gt hi. Tuesday sch from 8am-9pm, cos gt violin. Wednesday sch from 12pm-5pm. Zzz. So long hours, wonder how I take it. By the time come home already dead tired, so din update. Anyway, keeping myself SUPER busy is a good thing, at least got no time to think abt stuffs.
Wah. Finally finished the stupid ITA powerpoint. Sian man. Suddenly very sick of school again. (Not that I aint sick of school, but I'm ESPECIALLY sick of school suddenly.) Maybe cos temptations are everywhere. Hey hey, dun get me wrong. I meant ept and sealonline. AOR is coming to ept!!! Oh man, finally an update! The revival of ept - at last! Woohoo. But then I guess I dun tink it'll be me playing my archer most of the time ^^" lol. Dear shld be playing it, I tink. As for sealonline, hehe now jie joining me le. Woot. I feel like playing my mage though jie's character same server with my swordsman. Hmm. But still alot I dunno abt it and cos it is in chinese, so hard to read O_O" Then stuck with finding something which I dunno how to read and dunno where to get. Urgh.
Sick of school. Why? As usual alot of things to do, never seem to end. And I just realised I got myself into a bit of a tight fix. My only "slightly relaxing" day is thursday. Monday & Tuesday end sch at 7/8/9pm! Wednesday end at 5pm! Friday there's up and coming makeup lessons. Oh dread. Hate this man. Sux!!!!Been looking at friendster alot lately. Keep on spying on ppl. :X LOL~ Just the other day I helped an x classmate find her x crush. Woot. So li hai right ^^" And looked at my testimonials too. Aiyo. I just realised 2 common things people will say abt me, so I guess it is very true then lol. 1) Siao gamer. 2) Whiner! HAhahahah I wont deny them I guess. lol~ :P
Read a ptp forum thread that dear pasted to me. Diao. It was abt how a real life bf & gf's relationship turn sour because of pt(online game). Really want to pengz. They actually broke up cos of the game. *coughs* Okay, I do admit that got lots of time I "quarrel" with dear over pt oso, but erm....er...-_-" dunno what else to say. Haiz. Btw, the girl also started out with a priestess and then later created an archer. -__-" Familiar scenario arh?
Went to sakae sushi today with the class. WAH. CHioNG-Ed and ate like mad. I swear, I will never EVer do this kind of 'chiong-ing' again. I really kept eating and din realised until I stood up. Kao. Too full. Seriously, I've never been so full to this extent in my life so far. Damn. Nearly went to toilet and puke out everything. Zzz. But den, cant blame, food's nt bad. LOl. Me and zq alone had like 26/30 plates. 2 ppl eating 26 plates! Kao. Really din realised until zq counted. Lol. Then as usual angie and yf ate very little. Er, actually yf normally will eat much more de but today she ate b4 she came. Then angie is...haiz. Tis woman's "shi liang" very little de >_< Then end up, the both of them eat less than 15 plates altogether? Cant remember but I know very little @_@ den angie still say "U noe wad is black horse? I only slowly buidling up nia...still got time" WAHAHAH in the end oso have to admit tt zq and I win :X Erm...but really had alot of nice stuffs ^-^ Blueberry cheesecake!!!! Awww.....
Haiz. Still got stupid ITA powerpoint to do. SBS. (SiBeiSian) And.......MY SEALONLINE CRASH ON ME. EEEEKKKKK!!!! Crashed my lappy 3/4 times. Wonder what happen. Was working perfectly fine the whole day, on thursday. How come suddenly liddat....Sad sia. My mage lvl 7 only T_T sobz.
Dunno why, haven been sleeping well these few days. Yeah, I know common tests are over but then...*sigh. I dunno. It seems like when night comes, I think alot. Abt the past. Abt the present and even abt the future. The more I think, the more I cant sleep. So yeah, got the black eye patches around my eyes. Urgh. @_@ And the worse thing is, I seem to be falling back to the old sleep routine which is something I really do not want. I dun want to sleep only after 1am; I want to sleep before 1am. I dun want to wake up only after 10am; I want to wake up at 9:30am. I dun want to force myself to sleep more cos I know I din have enough sleep in the night. Freak. I hate this. I dun want to think abt the past, esp. not abt ... the 3 of them! But the thoughts just pop into my mind every night, for the past 2/3 nights. DAMN DAMN DAMN! WHY? ARGH!
Anyway, today FINALLY gt my ept back ^^ and best of all, I started playing Xi Wang ONLINE. I finally know where to learn the basic skills. Wow, really testing my chinese, u know? >_< Farnie ah, I ended up like jie, play male character! Lol :X But den the male character really very very very, super cute! White hair, spiky de somemore. OH gOSh. So kawaii!! He's lvl 8 btw, nick is -Dunno-. Tee Hee. So cuTE :X I initially wanted him to be a knight, but then I change my mind. I'm gonna make him into a cool dude with a damn cool sword, Ha! Yay, swordsman! Not my usual style. (my usual style is create magic user) But fun leh! Nevertheless, I will still create a female character, magic user ^^".
WAh. Gonna go broke leh. Wednesday went for movie and nice meal. Tml going sakae for class outing. Saturday maybe going ktv. Today x-colleaque sms "KTV, saturday, can?" WOOT. Jumped when I read the 3 words. MuAHHAHAHA. But den ah, -_-" will go broke if continue like this. Cos next week, need to celebrate fren's birthday. Aiyo. Someone help me~ I need funding badly. Pls donate generously to the Save-Jolene fund. LOL~ :X
Very tired now arh ~_~ Sleepy. Today went out wif the other 3 musketeers to ps. Went to catch Big Fish. Actually wanted to watch Acacia but sneaks so late, at 6pm+. Anyway watched Big Fish. VERY NICE SHOW ~T___T~!!!!!!!! At first me, yf and zq not keen de but den angie want to watch so ok lor. In the end...WAH!!! REALLY NICE LOR!!! Cried alittle when the senior Edward Bloom (junior played by Ewan Mcgregor) died. *SIGH* really nice show! >_< Dont mind watching again. :_) After that, we went to eat Fish & Co. Yum yum, ate fish & rice & soup (mushroom) ^-^ Ahhh...If everyday life was liddat den shiok liao. Keke. Hmm, gt few movies coming up that I want to watch leh. Die. If liddat I'm gonna go broke :/ I feel like catching Butterfly Effect, Acacia, The Eye2, 50 First Dates. 50 First Dates is acted by Adam Sandler, Drew Barrymore and Rob Schneider. Abt this girl (Drew Barrymore) who suffers from short term memory and her poor boyfriend (Adam Sandler) got to keep making her fall in love with him on every date cos she keep forgetting how they met. LOL. Adam Sandler's shows always have Rob Schneider and Rob Schneider's shows always have Adam Sandler. Haha wonder why....Anyway, both of them really gao xiao. lol.
Really felt like sleeping, until just now told the WHOLE story of Big Fish to mom. Haha her reaction was also same as mine when I finished watching the show. She said "Wah, I thought not nice, yuan lai not bad arh." LOl. Imagine, 3 out of 4 ppl nt that keen to watch the show but went to watch anyway. Come out of cinema, all 3 had the same reaction -- All 3 said "WAH, HENG HAO KAN HOR!!!!" to each other. LOL.
Oh YEAH! NeArLy ForgOt! ...Aiseh! Today hor, saw JL sia!!! WITH A GUY, ALONE with a guy, at PS. WAHAHAHA...! Spotted them from far, den she faster walk towards us and said hi, looking all paiseh. WAHAHHAHAH :X Then funniest thing is, when we went into the cinema, sat down, zq was saying "Hmm do u tink we will see JL in this cinema again?" Then my reply was "Aiyah, wont de la. Where gt so qiao 1?" Boy, was I wrong! ROFLOL!!! Seconds after I said that, JL appeared! Wah kao, that sent me and zq laughing like mad. Then, even more qiao. The "couple" got seats allocated where leh? Make a guess man. Hahaha. Yep, *dingdingding* right beside the 4 of us. ROFLOL!!! Anyway, in the end they paiseh change seats to the front. LOL. I dun blame them. So weird right, 4 lightbulbs? kEke :X Hoho! Can suan her le...or maybe blackmail her! whahaha *evil* lol...
So damn tired, no energy to play xiwang online le. Also lazy to fix pt liao. Totally drained. Tink I go slp liao. Nitez~!
YAy~ End of common tests. Physio paper was....er...dun mention. >_< Forgot alot of stuffs & blur me, I thot finish everyting liao den happy le, when i flip the paper at 2++ pm (paper ends at 3) I realised behind got 4 more questions. @_@ Of cos I hit the panic buttons like mad, Oh well, wth. Over le.
Tml going movie w the other 3 musketeers, friday going sakae (class outing). Cant go ktv on friday le :< But nvm, is go sakae eat. ^-^ Oh yea, came home, cleared my lappy stuff abit. Going to no space le~ 40Gb lemme use until left 5gb! O_O How come I use so fast and so much huh? So it was a wise choice to buy 120gb hdd for my pc, yeah? :X Anyway, anime already take up 10gb. Scary. But den, my lappy really alot of larbish, like jie said. Hehe. So uninstalled a couple of games and stuff. Now at least got 10gb free liao. *phew* But arh, really sad-ed leh! Toopid pt2. Really nt fated to play it. First is registration problem. When finally receive the confirmation email, login, version problem. Okay, nvm. Cos pt and pt2 will clash, so uninstall pt. No use, still gt version problem. Nvm. Dear help me ask ppl. Then gt the patch update file liao, right version liao. Click, almost going to reach login screen, auto exit to windows. tmd! >_< Kns. Okay, so nvm suan le. Nt fated to play pt2 jiu suan liao. Try to install back pt. Eek. Cannot update properly. Kao. Now both pt2 and pt oso cant play. Sheesh. Heng already retire frm pt, arbo sure cry. ~_~ Also heng 2day gave carl the ks claymore liao. Arbo he sure make more noise, like 2day I step out of exam hall only he saw me den ask me for claymore. kNs tis tabor. :X Haiz~ No PT ...T_T....Cant play Zelda: Oracle of Ages either, cos I'm stuck at some stupid place, cant get pass. Which leaves me to my new game ^-^ Really cute graphics, it's even cuter than RO! And best of all ---- NON-LAG! HA! BEAT THAT! Only catch is....it's in chinese ~_~ It's gonna take me awhile man. Meh~ Maybe tml or see when I'm free, I'll reinstall and install Pt and try Pt2 AGAIN. Not gonna give up that easily. HmpHf! :P
@_@" Cell Bio paper was okay lar, i tink. Already recalled everything I can and filled everything I could remember. So yeah, nothing much to say. :P Came home, SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP. Wah seh. Dunno why so tired. Think I'm really anemic like the chinese doctor said. LACK OR REDUCTION OF RED BLOOD CELLS. zzz. Really leh. Die. MAY BE DUE TO LACK OF IRON IN DIET, DEFICIENCY OF IRON CAUSES THE FAILURE TO SYNTHESIZE HEMOGLOBLIN, RESULTING IN REDUCED OXYGEN TRANSPORT. (okay, my bad but I just HAD to type that in caps, recall my facts abit) Yea, cos I get quite dizzy when I just get up from the bed or when I bend down and get up. Oh crap. Means I'm basically still very weak ~_~
Was on the phone when giappy msged on msn. He asked me when A lvl results came out. My answer was next week or really soon. He then reminded me of one year ago. Well well, time really flies, doesnt it? So fast and a year has past? Remembering my mood exactly one year ago, when I saw my results, how I felt, how I ignored all the concerned calls and sms-es, the tears that I held back and the thoughts of just ending it all. Sigh. But den again, will never ever forget the silly stunt me and giappy pulled at the Raffles City building. Was so silly and embarrassing but really really funny. Keke. Also, not forgetting giappy going down to SA to accompany me. It was 'to prevent me from doing anything stupid'. Heh heh, yep tat was real sweet and thoughtful of him. I still can recall his exact words when I said i felt like commiting suicide. He said "Eh jol, dun la. Think of the cleaner uncle. Dun make his job difficult. U jump hor, messy leh! He need to clean, so ke lian." LOL~ Yea, also recall standing outside RC shopping center and being mistaken as "INFORMATION COUNTER" (FOR TOURISTS, PLS ASK DIRECTIONS HERE!). Just stand there nia, so many tourists asked us for directions @_@. Then oso watching Maid In Manhattan & giappy thrashing me in pool ~_~ Wah. All these memories are still so vivid, so clear in my mind, as though it happened yesterday or something.