I hate suffering the consequences of procrastination YET I'm always a victim of my own actions! Urgh. Anyway, whoever claims tt they're the expert when it comes to procrastination must be really really mistaken. Cause no one can beat me at being a procrastinator. Yes yes, I'm de PRO when it comes to procrastinating. HA! No one can beat me man. Aww...Trying to stay sane right now and write something before I slp. Er...Oh yea, watched Waterboy on TV just now. HEh heh. Funny & Nice, though I watched it alot of times liao, can even predict what is going to happen next. :X But aww, I simply lUrVe Adam Sandler~ haha...Always find his shows so nice and funny somehow, tee hee. The wedding singer, Big Daddy, The Waterboy, Anger Management.... Ai ai ai, Love 'em all. Wonder he got any nice movies coming up?
Sometimes I really question my sanity and my ability to handle stress. Hmm. Maybe I've been listening too much of S.H.E's new album? I keep hearing the songs repeating in my head. Damn. -_-" Esp. This song called An Quan Gan. It's replaying and replaying. Argh. I guess it's another sleepless night for me. Zzz.
Talked to S on msn. It's been rather long since I last contacted her le~ A lvl results coming out le...Wish her all the best. Eh, lucky girl gonna go overseas to study medicine (most probably). Then she asked me if I met any interesting guys. Meh. Young guys do not interest me so..Unfortunately the answer was a 'no'. :/ *sigh.
Just remembered Ling mentioned tt she went zouk once. Smoky smoky place, she said. Eh. Nv been there, only been to 2 pubs so far - Indus3 & Blue elephant or something, both nt smoky and to me, are kinda nice. I tink she wants to go clubbing soon. But need to find more ppl go den hopefully will b on ladies nite with free admission and 1 free drink (?). Eh I tink I must be dreaming. Free admission, yes - ez to find but free drink abit hard arh. Where are my chiongster friends?! Go ask them. :X Hey wait, do I have any? A few, but no hiong hiong types :X lol. Wah.This iSh BAD. GOT 2 big tests tml and here I am thinking abt how to enjoy. knS.
Whee~~ I'm actually in a perky mood somehow. Dunno why. keke. Though haven even study halfway for exams, but then feeling damn hyped and cheery. I must be mad! Lol~ Yep anyway lemme slowly update. heh heh. Yesterday went out wif Ling. Went to catch Something's Gotta Give. Aww. Poor Keanu Reeves, didnt get the girl in the end, but well in love, someone's gotta win and someone's gotta lose and life goes on...haha. Kinda funny, with interesting twist at the end.
Today, went to sls wif jie. Din eat lunch so went to the foodcourt. Was staring into space when I noticed a familiar figure ran pass the glass window. Ah. It was rt. O_O *blink blink* Yep. I was certain, no mistake, it was him. Gosh. Oh yea, he frequents sls. Well, he sure looked the same, like I remembered. He seemed to be finding someone I think, running in and out of the foodcourt. He din see me though, which I thought was a lucky thing, cos if he did, I dunno how I would react, cant really face him for one. Urgh. Then anyway, after jie finished her rice, we went up to the 6th floor. She wanted to find the service center but couldnt really find it. Then, I was looking around at the 6th floor when...I saw rt again. -__-" He ran past me, but we (me & jie) were walking away already. I turned to my left, from the corner of my eye, I think I saw that he saw me cos he suddenly looked in our direction and stopped in his path. Haiz. Anyway, we finally got our comp stuff settled, my Hdd & jie's power supply. After that, went to JP to meet tudi.
Reached Jp, chiong-ed to music junction and grab my shinhwa cd! wahahah so happy!!! :D~ Listening to it now btw. :X Then l8er went to walk around JP alittle to search for my pencilcase. Saw at 37deg 3 different designs which I liked, but couldnt make up my mind so we left JP for home. Walked to the interchange and heard some loud sounds, like explosion or tire puncture. Me and jie went to see see. (Alot of ppl there looking oso) Woo, yuan lai they were shooting birds. O_o? WAh. First time see them shoot birds. Then stand there and watch "show". Erm, abit ke lian those birds. Fly halfway den *bang bang*, drop down to the ground liao. =/
Reached home, ate dinner. Talked to kenneth di. Aiseh, he ji ran dunno I gt watch soccer occasionally 1. Then started talking abt soccer lor. Urgh. Unfortunately, to my greatest horror, my di is a manure fan. Damn. Shall kill him the next time i see him in sch. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA :x *evil laugh* ...lol. Anyway, oso saw the news abt tis 10mil++ Pepsi advert. Damn kns. Why is Pepsi always asking stupid bacon to film adverts for them. Sheesh. But den, I forgive them cos their latest Pepsi commericial also features RAUL(!!!), TOTTI(!!!) and ROBERTO CARLOS!!! AHHHHHHHHHhhhHHhh Forgiven forgiven! LOL~~ Okay, shall pen off b4 I start to sound really psychotic.
Freaking pissed off now. And worse thing is, I threw my temper at someone dear to me and who did nothing to make me furious. In fact, he was doing me a favour by helping me settle the damn hdd problem. Then, had to pay by credit card for the postal service to send the hdd over for repair. So, I just casually asked that woman whether she had one or nt. A 'no' or 'am not going to give u the number' was enough. But NO, she wont stop at that. She wont settle for less when she can freaking put me down more whenever she can. So of course, my limit broke. But I just kept silent, cos I know once I open my mouth to say something in response to her, all hell will break loose all over again. But apparently, that didnt deter or stop her from further gibing. My silence only taunted her to continue with what she had gotten going. It was so bad till I had to go and ransack the whole storeroom to find my headphones so that I can blast my music w/o her nagging in the background. Then, handphone rang. On seeing the caller's name, my irritation and anger soared. Wanted to just smash the handphone by throwing it against the wall. Anyway, so here I am, trying to calm myself down and hopefully not punching the keyboard so hard that the keys become flat or something. I think I better call him to apologise. Damnit. My temper really sux. Totally uncontrollable. Urgh.
The toopid Cell Bio presentation finally over! Thank Goodness~ It went okay (thankfully) except for the stupid aquamarine lab! So darn cold~ was shivering and freezing throughout the whole 3 hours!Brr....Wonder how the fishes in the tanks survive @_@
On the bus today, Angie asked me how were things b/w me and him. Somehow, Angie's timing of these kind of questions always darn 'perfect". Anyway, told her abt wad happen today and her comment was "Ni men xian life too boring issit?" and "A childish couple quarrelling, so typical, Bleahz" Ah. Dunno how to react to her comments, but her comments only make realise and think abt more things. Just that some things are just so hard to say out so u have to keep it to yourself. But den, it is just driving you nuts! The more you think, the worse it seems to get. Anyway, came home, ate noodles and talked to grandson on msn. So long nv hear from him already; he's working now so seldom see him online. Hmm, listened to his problem lor..haiz. jia liat oso. sad. Then was listening to S.H.E's Ta Hai Shi Bu Dong while talking to him. Kao. The song brought tears to my eyes, esp the lyrics, seems so related to how I'm feeling. So cried alittle, now feel much much better already. Perhaps I do overeact alot. Dunno. Dun want to know. Dun want to think. Otherwise I'd keep thinking and go nuts. Think I'll go slp now, hopefully I'd feel better when I wake up.
Aiyo...dunno wad happen sia...got 2 stupid error msg when trying to access my journal =/ Anyway, err today's wednesday, guess wad? Haven start studying. Haha, dai-die~ Lol! ...But why am I still in such a cheery mood? Dunno y leh. Siao liao la, must be :X
Went to the ENT again this morning, almost late for appointment as I couldnt get up this morning. (due to last night go spy ppl in friendster then slept late...*OopS! secret out le~ O_O!!) Anyway, doctor say no need to follow up ler *YAY* Cos tonsils look fine now, except for stupid cough and flu which doc say is common cold, should clear up in abt 1 week. YiPeE~~ Ah den oso visited a Chinese doctor. (Like see alot of doctors recently, diao @_@. Can go make friend with them liao, pei yang gan qing...wahhahaha *choy* hopefully dun see them so often from now on :P) How should I say? Quite impressed by the chinese doc. She feel my pulse, frowned den ask me a question which totally stun me till I din noe how to answer. She asked "Meimei ar, Ni shi bu shi chi su de?" I was like O_O!!! Then she asked me in english for the 2nd time "Are u a vegetarian?" Diao! Really pengz sia! Kns. My O_O!!! l8er became ~!@#$@#%$^!! Really stunned man. >_< Dunno how to answer. Sheesh. Okay, for one I really like chicken but now chicken flu so nv eat chicken mah. Then, recently oso sick so I guess nv eat much oso. Err, although I admit I like veggie more than meat, cant live w/o veggie but I'm no less a carnivore than any other average person hor! Alamak, ji ran suspect I'm a vegetarian..sheesh~ lol But other than that, other things she say abt my health, all very accurate and furthermore, it's the first time I'm seeing her and I never tell her anything abt myself at all beforehand. So yeah, kinda impressed la. heh heh.
Really looking forward to friday!!! *pray dun fall even more sick* Cos I want to catch a movie and splurge! So long nv go out le, I have this huge urge to splurge!!! Tink I'm most prob gonna grab the 2 cds on my wishlist. ahhh so excited :X
eh eh...im now in sch lib, trying to do sci pract presentation.But ah...lol..cant concentrate. Haha. Then next table, got this guy with a group of girls and he's talking abt horoscopes and how the different horoscopes think and act. Sound very interesting leh! :X Ah...this quiz hor, the results very accurate for me, scary >_<
Have not been updating lately. 'Cause I've either got nothing much to say or too much things to say such that I dun feel like saying. Okay. One word. Lazy. Easy? ha. Thought so. Anyway, still having that stupid cough and flu, wonder if I've got TB or lung cancer or something. (No, I'm serious so dun laugh cos I'm aint laughing) Well, my Dad's side (Grandparents, Aunt etc) got huge cancer marker, esp. with the lung and respiratory related diseases. Aye...Maybe I'm next. =/ Oh, and throw in the Marfan Syndrome. Good grief. Looks like I'm gonna die young, lol. Hmm, for those who dunno, Marfan Syndrome is a rare genetic disorder affects connective tissues. So it affects one's heart (cardiac valve), lungs, skeleton, eyes etc etc. Let me paste more info. =x The Marfan syndrome is inherited and affects many parts of the body. There's no single conclusive test for diagnosing it, but people who have it often have many similar traits. Besides perhaps having heart problems, people with the Marfan syndrome are often tall and thin. They also may have slender, tapering fingers, long arms and legs, curvature of the spine and eye problems. Sometimes the Marfan syndrome is so mild that few (if any) symptoms exist. In the most severe cases, which are rare, life-threatening problems may occur at any age.
Er, there was this article in the Streats Time, cant remember the date exactly but was quite recent, on this young Singaporean musician (drumer) who died of this at an age of 37. Oh well. Enough of the medical stuff.
Abt to go into a state of massive panic all over again. Ai, boy, do I hate pressing those red buttons! But I cant!!!! Everything's driving me nuts all over again. Man, this year feels like 2002 all over again, the year where everything went bad bad bad. Horrible Horrible Year. Urgh. Lemme explain why. Scientific pract NOT STARTED YET, *OMG*, Due thursday! Info - Cant seem to find relevant stuff. Progress - NEGATIVE. @_@. Next, common test. Progress - Hey guess wad? Negative too!!! Yipee~ Then been absent l8ely, tio email liao. KNS. Yet another stress bagged. Health Status - Dun wish to mention. X_X My Life (in general) - A vacuum cleaner. It just sucks. Hurhur.
Sometimes really wish can just heck care everything. Dont give a damn abt anybody or anything. Yet though one can just keep saying that, doing is actually another different thing altogether. Ai...Oh oh before I start to sound TOO negative. I do have some things to feel happy abt. Realised that I have neglected my best friend and lots of good friends ever since ........... HOWEVER, I have gotten into contact with them again!!! YAY fer me! Hahah...So happy to be back in contact with Jing & Ling. This friday most prob going movie wif Ling~! (Ah. My Bestest Pal ever since pri. 5!) Heh heh! Look forward to it. Hope I dun fall too sick to go. ~!@#$%^&* Alright, shall end here. Dunno which toot still playing bball at this hour, can hear the ball bounce bounce -__-lll
Time can really change things so much. For some, feelings only grow stronger and deeper. While for others, feelings begin to fade away and disappear into oblivion. What happens when the change is too great for us to take? ...................
Been real sick these few days, missed many days of school, finally today went back to school. Happy to see classmates again, all so concerned, very touched T____T. Yet, very sianz to be back when you jolly well know got you've got lots of work ahead of you, if not right infront, or even above you, where the whole load's gonna come crashing down and crush you flat. =/ what to do. *sigh*
Realised tt I've developed an interest, which is an interest in NOTHING. Yes, I have become absolutely disinterested in almost everything that I can think of. (Okay, maybe except sleeping and tv and perhaps PT.) Other than that, even my favourite past-time, eating, simply disinterests me. Thinking of eating suddenly becomes a drag. This is bad. It means Im really sick and it seems the sickness took all the happy genes or whatever away from me too. Oh man. -___-
On vday, I received a call from an unknown number, I din know it was an overseas call. When I picked up the phone. Got a real shock. Because the voice over at the end REALLY REALLY REALLY sounded like D. The way he spoke, the tone, the voice, everything. Thats why I gt a real shock. But then it couldnt be D also, we lost contact for almost a year already. Weird thing was, deep down I did wish it was D. Just so I wanted to know how he was getting along with his life. Hope he's doing fine. Sometimes it makes me wonder, what if, 1 year ago, my decision was different? If I wasnt so childish and 'weak' then, how would life be like now? But I guess in life, all of us would make some decisions that in future when we look back, it'll make us wonder abt our choices. Anyway, the call was from sam kor who's in m'asia. (how ironic, both D and kor are malaysians) Both speak chinese, -__-!!! which is a language I feel rather uncomfortable conversing with, cos I cant speak chinese properly. :X Yeah, but dun care man, whenever I reach the limit, I'll instantly switch to english :P haha.
EH? Funny arh, I cant see my previous entry leh. o.O Anyway, this morning went to SGH's A&E. Had difficulty breathing. Went to see the doctor there, then he said it was normal as the throat was infected, so I may experience shortness of breath. He also gave me new antibiotics and medicine, seems that the previous antibiotic doesnt work well. (Aye, no wonder it makes my stomach upset and I keep puking @_@) The doctor gave me 3 days mc, tuesday I'm going to see ENT specialist already. He also thinks my tonsils dont need to be removed! *yAy* So now feel kinda ok....hope this keeps up. :/ Hmm abit worried, alot of assignments due week 6/7 i tink, den if i continue to feel so sick, would b falling behind. But heck, wth. Health is more impt right? :P
Haven been online and updating my journal recently cos am feeling very weak. I should say I feel as good as the living dead. Been in bed almost all the time except for meals and toilet break. Terrible. It's the damn tonsils!!!! They've gotten infected somehow and are causing me lots of problems. Like high fever (39.7 degrees), chills (shivering), nausea, ear infection (no wonder the ear nv seems to unblock, doc says the tonsils pressed against the ears...owww.)...Anyway, it's really terrible, imagine u have a high fever and u're shivering like mad. haiz. 2 weeks l8er gotta go c ENT @ SGH. Dunno can survive till then. Might have to remove them (?) Im not sure yet.
Sad sad day today. It's Valentine's Day but not happy at all. By right everything shld have gone as planned, but as i predicted, I did fall sick n end up couldnt get the thing done. sigh. Shall go off to rest now.
Originally written one whole paragraph. Then I hit the 'Backspace' button.
Shall try again.
Stressed. Depressed. On the verge of insanity.
Okayyyy....Where do i start? Erm. Finally know the root of de problem. VOlA~ *acts italiano* So everything's preeeettttyyyyyy much ooookkkkaayyyyy now i suppose. =/ Hmm...did u noe viola is actually a stringed instrument too? It looks like a slightly bigger version of the violin and has a lower tone. It doesnt play the melody of recitals but is still much needed as an accompaniment.
Was watching tis documentary abt the influenza virus on CNA. Eek. So deadly @_@ the 1918 flu, aka spanish flu killed so many ppl, more than the total number of deaths frm ww1 & ww2 combined! OH MY GOODNESS!! x_X And also on the show, it said that the old flu virus contains pig + human characteristics. But somehow, now it bypass pigs, jumped to fowl. (that's how the bird flu came?) Er. An epidemic's threatening to break out! NooOOooOOOooO!! Eeekkkk~~~
This few days, my phone's having lots of sms from unknown numbers. I know some is cca de but some...erm? dunno from where? Somemore, by the looks of the sms, sounds as though they know me? Who arh? They sms me something tat seems logical (?) but yet I have no record of their numbers. Aiyo. Why liddat?
Hmm my left ear still haven unblocked wor! Diaoz. It keeps unblocking and blocking whenever I yawn/swallow/drink/eat/breathe. Aiyo. Think seriously gt something wrong! I need an ENT specialist ar. bAh...
Everything's really not going my way. Today went to sch twice. First time went to find the venue of the cca interview. Goodness. The freaking venue given by the person cannot be found! Made me run around sch like a mad person. Ok fine, so went back home. Waited till yf & zq ended sch den rush down to school for 2nd time. They also cant find. -__-lll Finally they went to ask someone den found out the person gave wrong venue. Crap man. Waste my time. Anyway went for the interview. 1 person to 3 interviewers. goodness. so crappy! I h8 interviews~ eww. cos to me, there's only 1 word to describe them. F-A-K-E. U tell them wad they wanna hear, impress them and *bam* seal ur fate. Sheesh. Really cant stand it. HECK AR! Dont care if Im in or out.
The thing's still not resolved yet. Wondering whats left of it. Gone from depressed to nonchalant and then to depressed and back to nonchalant. Basically mood just revolves between those 2 words. Only one song in my playlist now. Evanescence - My Immortal. Can sorta relate to it now. Think I'll go try to get some sleep again. Din sleep much last night. Good Nite then.
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Follow these easy steps to put on weight!!!
Note: Stop here if it does not apply to you. Read on if you're in serious need of weight gain.
1. Eat Fast food for 3 meals a day, everyday, consecutively for 1 whole week.
Example: Monday - McDonalds, Tuesday - KFC, Wednesday - Pizza Hut, Thursday - Mos Burger, Friday - Long John Silver, Saturday - Burger King, Sunday - Mac/KFC again.
2. Instead of 3 meals a day, eat up to 6 meals a day.
3. Snack as and when you can. Ideal snacks would be chicken wings (deep fried), burgers, fries etc.
4. Drink one cup of oil everyday. (hurhur)
5. Exercise like mad to build up muscle mass.
The author is not responsible for any direct, indirect, incidental or special loss or damage to health, whether arising from negligence, misconception, misinterpretation or any wrong practise of the above steps.
Ha! LOL! Ok....that was kinda lame. But seriously number 1 was suggested by my group of frens. Yikes, eh? Hmm. Wonder if it would work? Hurhur. Aiseh. Busy weekend ahead and Im still stoning. Great. >_< woo, suddenly alot of hype abt william hung eh? lol. No need get to the semis of american idols, yet already so famous worldwide! What more can u ask for! Lucky guy, I suppose? heh heh.
Feeling damn freaking pissed off and this damn stupid blog refuses to be updated wif some sheety runtime error msg crap. Grr. Really feeling damn pissed off. Do I have to get angry every nite? Damnit. So much work to be done, 4 tests next week, 3 of them cramped on monday, 1 on friday. Weekends already burnt. But guess wad? There's more. Sunday need to discuss stupid crap CATS presentation NEXT WEEK oso. WTH. Sheety Week 6. To hell with it man. CRAP. STUPID FREAKING WEEK NEXT WEEK. Cant even complete OBC tuitorial properly. Bloody hell. The damn organic chem notes refuses to be found. Cant remember where it freaking went. Cant start finding it also, cos I dun noe which damn place to start. Boxes and boxes everywhere. Which box? I dun have a single clue. And I cant remember wad the HELL PCl5 does. Seems familiar, yet vague. WTH. Feel like trashing the whole place up. gRr. I really need that punching bag I thought of getting. Really need it ASAP!!!!11!!!!!!!!!! *punches '1' key till it dies*
Nothing much happened today, 'cept I was l8 for CATS group meeting today :X cos I woke up late. lol. Came back, finished up the CATS stuff. Eeeyer. Sian. Just remembered, next week so many tests, boring. ITP+ITA tests on monday, OBC test on friday. Still have Cell Bio online test pending. Then still need to..............Diaoz. Gonna be a busy week for me next week. Sheesh.
Afternoon - did nothing but decide on .............. den talk to friends. Tio suan by jie and doggie. Haiz~ No one saved me sia. Luckily tudi not there, arbo I sure die till I oso dunno why i die. :x Hmm, okay I guess nothing much le. 'Cept suddenly craving for a sandwich. Bah. :/
whEe~~ happie day 2day!! hehehe...went to chinatown in the morning walk walk. I know ppl have tis misconception that chinatown is for aunties/uncles/ahpek/ahma or the older generation de, it isnt lor! The food there totally rulez wor! ^^ heh heh. Went shopping at OG abit. Bought a jacket, 1 pants and 2 tees. Tried 2 pants from giodano. Goodness, y all so short huh -_-" the length of the pants i mean. The longest length, 32, can hardly touch my ankle. Kao. Short leh. :/ I think I need to chop off some part of my leg liao. LOL!
Came back, went irc. Something really amusing (to me) happened. Joined to Xuan Jie's channel den Kami-san was like "Spiral! Spiral! Spiral!" Whahahaha. Then we both started toking abt it. I told him I watch till epi 13 only, den kami was like "I gt all, lend my fren liao" So desu ne~ Then I said I borrowed from a fren's fren. (Those disks are my fren's fren's.) Kami den said his disks are white. o.O!!! Mine are too. He din label them. o.O!!! Mine arent labelled too, tats why gt hard time finding the right epi. And so, I asked the last question "In a blue plastic huh?" Then Kami and I started laughing lol. LOL! The disks that Kami lent his fren actually end up in my hands...hahahah My fren is actually Kami's fren too. xD This is so comical man. Wait till CS (me and kami's fren) learns abt this..heh heh wonder how he will react lol)
Haiz. Sian arh.....Getting abit upset by some of the people I know. I really dun mean to be critical or wad but seriously, I expected better. How shld I put this? One word - Disappointing. Really din expect them to be like this lor. One so freaking boastful abt himself. What can I say man, he's just so full of himself. Even if he's really good, dun need to keep repeating it right? Oh well. Imma gonna say sumting mean but I dun care. Here goes :X .... Hopefully someday, I hope I have the chance/luck to see him fall FLAT on his face cos his head is too bloody big for his shoes! :X The other ppl, from pt. Haiz. Why do I feel as though they're after my account. It's true my account is worth alot, but hey I did put alot of hardwork to get to where I am. Anyway, the point is these irritating ppl keep asking me to lend them my account, or lend them something. The thing is, they only seem to tok to me when they want something frm me, if nothing den bo hiewz me, leave me alone. >.< So they value Pt more important than friendship? Ah. All the fake and superficial ppl!!! EEekkkk!!! :X Go away ~~ *takes huge fly swatter and starts swatting these "flies" *
Mom still not back yet from her gathering. So, no dinner yet. WHERE IS MY DINNER~~ Im starving. T_T Shall stop here. Go chiong spiral :D -The music of logic will not fail to sing the melody of truth-