aiyo. damnit. see lah. i'm so awake now again. just awhile ago i was staring at my biochem notes, trying to get some stuff in and what? my eyelids just kept weighing down on my eyes. @_@ struggled like mad to stay awake! and now when i face the computer, they suddenly decide that they aren't tired anymore. WAD THE!? anyway, episode 17 of heroes is out. yesterday i think.
woke up early to go sgh for checkup today. it ended at 10. went to packet yong tau fu soup back home. waited for love to come over for lunch. we had spring chicken, yong tau fu and roast pork for lunch. i watched the first 2 episodes of heroes together with love. wahahha! made him gian :P he thinks that it's quite a 'sick' show. where got? only bloody body parts in 2~3 scenes nia. aiyah, no biggie lah!
had dinner at the recently opened marche at vivocity. woo. nice dinner but.....quite chor on the wallet. it's alittle charred already, can still hear the sizzling sound *SSSssssss* LOL! okay, i'll post the pixtures tml. till then.
...and for valid reasons too. people, being humans, simply have ulterior motives. i'm not trying to shoot anyone in particular but it's just something that i've observed. i just find that we, even though we may not notice it, indeed have hidden agendas. it may be very minute, or it could be a really strong motive, it may even be a motive that the person unknowingly sets down. these motives may not always bring harm to the other person(s) but when they do, they deal a great deal of damage. i don't want to give examples although i do have some in mind right now. i just i should just drop this thought now, before it consumes me.
..........on another note, cheeseng was explaining to me this game played with poker cards called inbetween. okay, maybe i'm a mountain turtoise, never hear b4 :X but it sounds damn fun to play although the stakes can get insanely high. he played it at his friends' house during CNY. the game starts when everyone bids $1. then everyone is dealt 2 cards each, which is facing up where every player can see. the objective of the game is very simple - get a third card which is in between the 2 cards given to you. (Ace is 1 and J is 11, Q is 12 & K is 13) after the 2 cards are dealt, players must bid again. (can bid up to the maximum amount, which is EVERYTHING in the pot) wahahaha~ here's where everything lies the hands of lady luck and greed. anyway, the gramps' greediness made him lose 100 bucks at one shot. lol. super funny~ but in the end, not so bad he didn't lose that much, deficit of 30bucks only. his 'hero' friend however, lost like 300bucks. lol~ *shakes head* gambling ish bad!
my so called "study break" (YEAH RIGHT, NO THANKS to 2 days being eaten up by PH!) has almost officially ended. again, i didn't accomplish anything. wah kao! cannot stand it. =\ not done with the studying of 2 tests this week, still got 2 tutorials to do, and 2 projects pending! nuUuuu... @_@
so what have i been up to the whole week? beats me man. i just know that i've been AROUND, but definitely not hanging around my books to say the least. i think i was busy watching my dramas. Desperate housewives season 3! (YAY, they're gonna show it on tv soon!!! wahahaha) and also watched some episodes of Naruto where i left off and and....not forgetting...HEROES! i only touched the first 2 episodes though. Not too bad at all! Many thanks to jh :D what else. oh ya, love and i had our cooking session #8?(7 or 8? lost count liao -_-x ) on wed.
doesn't look like it, but it's sweet sour pork >_< sauce was nice but the meat wasn't. we're gonna try to cook this again :( 
chicken kebabs [taste nice 'cause of the honey mustard seasoning and herbs :)]
anyway, all 3 of us (me, love and chun) slept alittle (like barely 2 hours) before meeting up to go to service chugether this morning. 3 of us were like zombies when we met up.(because of the ktv session last nite-this morning) lol. chun was dozing off during the sermon, i was just spacing out and love just struggled to stay awake. and at the end of the service, love told me something which was actually quite funny but somehow i just didn't have the energy to laugh. and the thing was....THIS!!!
It just goes to show how exhausted we were! Love actually wore a mismatched pair of shoes out O_O! and both me and chun didn't notice 'cause we were just too tired to even stay awake. jeez
chun went over to love's place for visiting while i just tagged along. ha~ despite the 3 of us struggling to stay awake, we managed to watch the whole of 无间道I on vcd at love's place. really a superb show! one of my favourite movies~ among the 3, the first is probably the nicest, even though, very sad 'cause anthony wong and tony leung's characters died and andy lau was a baddie trying to be a goodie. :S
i'm super exhausted beyond words. my body is aching, my eyelids weigh a ton and YET i cannot sleep! because i just reached home not too long ago and i have be at church for service in like less than 5 hrs time. aiyo. @_@ went to kbox with love and chun. was there from 8pm-3am. totally insane! now my head is filled with all the hokkien songs they sang. LOL. actually i wasn't exactly in the mood for k but i went there anyway. even though it's a WEEKEND. and no, i wasn't feeling rich even though it's still new year but you see, my relatives aren't that many so my "harvest" isn't all that great like the average 22 year old. anyway ah, after k we went to the 24hr coffeeshop for early breakfast. saw quite abit of ppl who went there to eat, after clubbing i supposed. and i spotted a familiar face. cant fit a name to his face. it was someone from my sec sch, one of the 4/4 guys. i think it's with desmond that gang de. :X somehow when i see his face i think of desmond. but he's not desmond, of course. so weird =.=" hai. i really wanna sleep.................................................*BIGBIG YAWNZ*
ooohhh... went to love's place to 拜年 today. wasn't helping that i was feeling quite stressed out about it the night before. things just had to go wrong wrong wrong. -_-x i woke up early (many many hours before i was supposed to go over). ate lunch and watched a few episodes of naruto. bathed, got ready and left home. walked to the interchange to take 166.
waited...waited...and waited. 5 minutes...10minutes...15minutes...20minutes. kao! infuriating! 20minutes past and still no sign of the bus! the queue was lengthening and YET still no bus. WTH! then somemore was already past 4 le. (i was supposed to reach at 4pm!) i was going to be DAMN LATE! somemore, earlier in the morning, love went to buy tickets for the 4.50pm show at gv vivo. oh man. at that point i thought "this can't be happening!" i called love up, told him that the bus STILL isn't here yet. was feeling very peeved liao! after the call, i decided to take a cab. walked to the exit of the interchange nia, it started to rain heavily. great. what luck. -_-" now not only that i can't even flag a cab along the road 'cause it was raining heavily, i had to walk ALL THE WAY to the taxi stand which is outside macdonalds. grr. heng there weren't alot of ppl at the taxi stand. i was 3rd in queue. when it was my turn i got into the cab then the uncle ask me where i wanna go. then he suddenly said "eh i going jurong." wth. dun say earlier! at this point i simply wanna strangle anyone i see liao, just simply can't believe the type of luck i was having. i got on the next cab and told the taxi driver where i wanted to go. meh. i dun tink he knows exactly how to get to love's block. then he asked me which way i wanted to go by. alamak. i hate this question, not only because i always dunno which is the fastest route but because i feel it's the kind of do-you-even-need-to-ask-arent-you-in-a-better-position-to-decide-for-me question. LIKE HELLO? OBVIOUSLY I TAKE CAB MEANS I'M VERY LATE LIAO AND OF COURSE I WOULD WANT TO TAKE THE FASTEST ROUTE RIGHT!? STILL NEED TO ASK MEH! -__-x yeah, so i piah cab down and reached before 4.30. *phew*
after the visiting, love's dad drove us down to vivo and the 3 of us caught protege! wow. the show was really good. simple plot but leaves a very deep impression. it's quite scary and disturbing actually. scary not in the horror movie kind of scary but scary because the scenarios depicted in the movie are so everyday kind of scenario, can happen to you, me or anyone. *quivers* it was just absolutely heart wrenching. and the message was LOUD and CLEAR - DON'T DO DRUGS. not that i have ever considered doing drugs at any point of my life or anything but after watching the show, it just reinforces the "STAY FAR FAR AWAY FROM DRUGS" mentality. Good show with star studded cast (Andy Lau and Daniel Wu leh! Daniel Wu damn shuai lor.). Super worth watching!
After the movie, love's dad brought us to thai express for dinner =) love's mom and bro came to join us too. hehe. the food was not bad. i liked the beancurd and fishcake thingy dish. :X and of course not forgetting the green curry which i like alot :P hehe. but hmm, come to think of it. thai express. i've only eaten there 3 times including this one. all 3 memories would be special - in their own ways. just like how the only 2 times which i intentionally went to open the letterbox and got a pleasant surprise for both times. One was the admission letter from nus and the other was love's vday gift for me ^_^;;
after dinner love sent me home and came over to 拜年. we ate nuggets and mutton curry with bread and watched abit of tv. damn sian la. holidays no good shows on tv. boring! hmm, okay. im quite beat. gonna head to bed.
Mm. kinda wanna go UCLA summer programme. but 7.5k! haiz. no gold :(
wonder how is everyone's new year visiting coming along. seriously every chinese new year just gets more and more quiet and sian. -.-" but nevertheless, it's still nice to see and catch up with relatives at least once a year.
kinda been very long since i last saw all my maternal cousins, aunts and uncles. even the 2 cousins that i have been so close with since young, i think the last time i met their was on the reunion dinner day. but things are still cool between us i guess. we're still the funny trio that we have always been since young. haha! im really quite impressed at how much one of them has changed. she's the same age as me which kind of sucks at times when my mom brings her up and compare us both. zzz. she's already working now, whereas im STILL studying. sigh. she used to be the selfish, arrogant brat who's rude to absolutely anyone and everyone whom she feels like being rude to. never seemed to care much for anyone except herself and was always mean to her younger sister. although i must admit that sometimes i can be a selfish and arrogant brat myself, but beside her, im just mild. but now she has changed so so much! it's just amazing. she isnt all that rude now. her younger sister is her best buddy now. and she gave my grandma a red packet! (she's not married yet but she's working) O_O?! she still does have her weird quirks here and then but wow. the change is really 360 degrees. =\ as for me and her younger sister, we're both still pretty much the same - i think we resist change alot.
on friday, the biochem practical was long. not because the experiment was long. but because people from OTHER groups inconsiderately came to OUR area of the lab and HOGGED the spectrophotometers. yep, my TA got quite buay song but there was clearly nothing he could do. so we just waited till the spectros were free and had some "small talk". One of the topics was about Profs, how they are always not what they seem. During lecture they can be very nice, but at the lab, esp. when u're doing project, they can be demanding as hell and have really high expectations. i realised my TA is really very bright. -_-x he's completing his masters in june and his cap is close to 5. wth O_O and he wants to do LAW degree after his masters. he also likes to crap with us. one guy from my pract group, ben, was rushing thru the pract cos he needed to go teach tuition. so he asked my TA when can finish, then my TA, as usual full of crap, answered "why leh? where u rushing off to? Go queue for Bak Kua issit?" Wah kao. after he said that everyone nearby laugh till pengz la! lol
after our LONG lab session (normally we're the 1st grp to finish de, but that day become last grp -_-), 7 of us (3 guys and 4 gals from our pract grp) went to have lunch together at science canteen. though i was in the same bio d pract class as them last sem, i hardly talked to them much. so weird huh, only this sem thru biochem then we talked alot more. actually i felt very bad 'cause i didnt know amanda n elayna waited for me after pract but i already agreed to have lunch with the practmates -_-x but i guess the gals understand ba. due to lack of bigger seats, the 3 guys had to share 1 bench that was made for 2 ppl. lol :X then we gals very evil, still joke say later the bench break. haha! hmm, having lunch with them kind of reminds me of poly days. where a clique of larger than 5 having lunch together was a norm. but in uni, it was a damn rare sight. somehow ppl in uni just either travel alone, in pairs or 3 as a max. even the seats in the canteen are made for 1-4 ppl nia. what is this -_-" very sad if u ask me. man, im just very thankful for our clique of 5. ^_^
to the end of vday. ah, yes. finally the 'dreaded' day is almost over. i hope the florists and marketing ppl are happy that they have earned their big bucks! well well. but actually, i shalt be sounding so mean and bitter. After all, this vday has been a special and memorable one for me =)
love was feeling quite sick (flu-like symptoms) after our trip to the east. last night and today had been pretty bad for him, to say the least. when i saw him in school today, he had never looked so pale and un-lively. anyway i accompanied him to the UHWC to see doctor. we got there at 12.50 but it was closed so had to wait till 1.30pm. went to the students lounge to wait. when the clinic finally opened, love was like the 2nd or 3rd person in line. yeah, so it was quite fast. i noticed the patients were mostly guys. hMmm.... and the pharmacist speaks damn loud :X such that even though i was sitting damn far from the counter i could clearly hear the prescription that she read out. lol. after that accompanied love to the kent ridge terminal, waited for his bus to come and then sped off to go meet the girls for physics and changing landscapes discussion.
i couldn't concentrate during genetics 'cause of the lack of sleep the previous night. WHY? Because of some asshole that pissed me off. Hell, i was feeling so pissed such that after i crawled to bed it took me darn long to doze off. ~!@#$%^&*kns! anyway, i figured the lecturer was probably in a holiday mood himself as well. Kept saying that primase makes the DNA primer. (should be RNA primer) and the way he prounces RNA is...oh my gdness, please save me. super funny. it sounds like ah-neh. LOL.
after lecture i took 10 down to love's place. aiyo. the peak hour jam at pasir panjang is as insane as the one at AYE when taking 96! and it doesnt help that i kept dozing off. luckily i didnt miss my stop, but the stupid ride took 45mins. love was already at the bus stop waiting for me. we went to have our dinner. the wan tan mee near his place was very nice. the seller is a butch-y looking ah lian. her looks scares me but actually she's very nice.
after dinner we walked back to love's block. at the back of my mind i was wondering why he didn't walk me to the bus stop. but i didn't say anything. then love started to look at the noticeboard that was near the letterboxes. he then walked over to the letterboxes and wanted to open his letterbox. he slot the key in and then he hesitated. suddenly he took out his phone and said he haven't replied jh's sms. like huh o_O? okay...so asked me to help him open the letterbox while he sms. so i did as i was told lor. and i found this: 
...aww man. lol. the cute eyes and hair staring at me, i couldn't hide my surprise at all and just beamed. hahaha! it was really sweet of love ^_^ the stuffed animal was the "mew" we saw yesterday at hallmark, which was pretty much cuteness at first sight. (see, we even named it yesterday -_-x) and the thingy which mew was tied so tightly too....the all too familiar silver packaging....ROYCE CHOCOS!!!! =D my favourite!!! hehehe :P and ya, it was even my favourite flavour - milk chocolate. thoughtful the boy is.
okay, shall stop singing to his praises. lest his head gets too big :X guan rui and donnavan were also very sweet to us girls! they got us this: 
chocos and handmade flower! =) the 2 are really nice guys lah! to a certain someone, don't hestiate liao~ MAI Tu liao! choose leh! faster grab! LOL! (cannot type the name, later i tio hoot in school.) haha...okay la. enuff of jokes. i shld get some sleep liao. arbo tml late in meeting her :) *wahahahah*
oh, i finally found a phrase to get back at the moron. but kinda not feeling mean enough to put it as my msn nick. "Intellectually argumentative girls do exist. You should pray and hope that they like short guys."
my long weekend has officially ended. died. :( gotta be in school in 8 hours time. shld really be in bed but dunno why im here oso. didnt really do much yesterday. mom didnt work so she invited love over for lunch. she cooked century egg meat porridge. whoa. it was really darn good. after me and love tasted it, it was sort of like a "oh, so that's how far we are from the mark" haha! sadly, it's damn far T_T
i met love at clementi mrt station today at 11am+. went to tanah merah to meet jean =) jean drove us to bedok food centre where we had nice wan ton mee and cheng teng. the cheng teng was damn nice man. after that she drove us to parkway parade. dun tink i've been there before, since it's all the way in the east. don't really know much about the east side of sg.
zzz. it's getting late liao. and i've totally lost the mood to continue blogging about why i hate valentines day, ever since my singlehood days and even after being attached, i still hate it. so i shall just end here. though jean and love made my day today but no thanks to chris, who made my blood boil over simply by responding in msn. and to think it all started with the eeyore display picture. i kinda regretted asking him to change it back. if i hadn't msg him, i wont have wasted so much time online, wouldnt have made my blood boil and wouldnt have gotten FREAKING PEEVED. you could say that in a way, my intellect was assessed and i got really put off. i probably came off as being "bimbotic" but at the end of the day, i felt that he was the one being mocked at. for the ideal of intellectually argumentative girl that he so badly seeks, is probably extremely hard to find. and even if he did find one, there are A WHOLE LOT of other factors that will interplay. and all i said to him was "good luck finding her. and when you do, let me know." though i gotta admit, it kinda sends a painful arrow that shoots back to me and all of the female race but then again, it reaffirms the possibility of him being alone all his life because of the IDEAL that he seeks - that was just priceless. (Yes, i was feeling evil, still am, damnit.) but u cant blame me T_T It was just such an excruciatingly painful conversation to go thru. grr. really 自找的, kns. i shall not let myself be caught in this type of situation again. i guess i can take it as a lesson. To simply walk away from someone who's looking to start an argument with you, which you know you're most probably going to lose. Choose your battles wisely. If you feel you're going to lose, simply walk away. Sigh. WHY DIDN'T I JUST WALK AWAY? T_T love is so going to laugh when he sees this :(
got back from my 1 week in advance reunion dinner with my aunt's family and my grandma. unlike other years, this year they decided to eat out and 1 week in advance as well. anyway we went to Intercontinental Singapore's Chinese Restaurant for our dinner.
The food was absolutely superb! Suckling pig, Peking Duck, Sharks Fin soup, Scallops+Prawn+broccoli, Stir fried noodles with duck meat, "Xue ge" (Red dates , longan, lian zi and Hashima) and some fried pastries for desserts. Heavenly. Price wise, obviously - not so friendly for the wallet. :X but hey, you get what you pay for. furthermore it's a one year once kinda thing. Really good stuff!!! :P The nicest dish would have to be the sharks fin. Normally the sharks fin soup that i expect is usually those clear broth with abit of starch de. but this one was milky, rich broth. At first i thought how come they served dessert as 2nd dish 'cause it looked so much like almond paste (yes, i nearly freaked out. Almond paste leh! wah lao, EWw. :X ) but then when i scooped one spoon of it....WoW. Damn nice! T_T the suckling pig was tasty and most importantly, CRISPY. oh man @_@ The peking duck was also damn nice la! i like the sauce~ Woo~ the rest of the dishes weren't too oily or too salty - just nice. everyone enjoyed the dinner =) we finished at about 7plus almost 8. after that i accompanied mom to walk at bugis abit then came home le.
earlier this morning, i woke up at 10.20am (i was supposed to meet love at the bus stop near church at 11.15am.) and got hit by a bolt of depression. i dunno what happened man. 2 consecutive nightmares before and just basically felt like crap when i pulled myself outta bed. there was this immense dreadful feeling that swept me. i literally dragged my feet to the bathroom, unwillingly got ready and left the house at 11am.
when i reached the beginning of the overhead bridge, i saw the bus was already at the junction and was going to reach the bus stop real soon. "crap", i thought. feel so dreadful liao still so bloody sway as to miss the bus when i'm running terribly late. then at the back of my mind, i told myself, it'll probably take a miracle for me to be able to catch the bus. so i walked up the overhead bridge and kinda sprinted my way down then i walked to the bus stop. O_O strangely, i got to the bus stop before the bus did. wow. meh, in the end, i was still late. although, was earlier than last week :X but damn, i still felt really bad. 'cause i'm always late for service @_@ end up i always make love late for service as well. :\
today's message was quite...how do i put it. dry, perhaps? 'cause it was mission sunday, where they talked about how they can help the poor in other countries. interestingly, (maybe i was naive abt this before i guess.) i found out that much of the world isn't christian. i always used to think ppl in the states are mostly, if not all christians. hmm.
anyway, after service, despite love's bad episode of sinus, we still went out and had lunch together =) *thanks love!* without much clue to exactly where we wanted to have our lunch, we just hopped on bus 10. we ended up alighting at some random bus stop near the CBD area. walked past a small park which seemed really sad (cos some of the plants were really wilting already -.-") and out of place amidst all the tall buildings. continued walking aimlessly and exploring the area. we noticed that there were shorter and dilapidated buildings which looked quiet and abandoned amongst the tall, nice and modern looking buildings. there was one really old building where many ah peks were just basically sitting around there, waiting for time to pass. marginalised landscape perhaps? Kinda interesting 'cause the old and new are like right next to each other.
Anyway, both of us just wandered and ended up at Amoy street food centre. WooHoo! My favourite Lor Mee stall is there!!! :D I've been eating from the lor mee stall ever since i was a kid, i think since primary school or even before that. And it still tastes exactly the same as i remembered. Really love the taste of it, not to mention it brings back fond memories. Our lunch was lor mee, oyster pancake, pork roll (wu xiang) and carrot cake! the ginger tea there is really nice too, though i aint a fan of ginger tea. after lunch, we took 196 back home. long but fruitful day. =)
my gosh. it's already sunday morning. i'm still up. gotta go church tml morning but i'm not in bed yet. zip and my whole weekend is almost gone! where was friday and saturday? -_-x
anyway, a very belated happy 5 months anniversary to da cookie monster xD hurhur. sadly, we didn't really celebrate our 5th month together 'cause he had cg and i had my seminar. oh yeah. by the way, the seminar on friday - single men are like waffles, single women are like spaghetti was great! absolutely enriching~ and im glad that i went for it and ling was glad she went for it too. kinda felt that it would have been better for ling if i didn't choose such ulu-ated seats. maybe she could have gotten to know some hunks or something if we sat near them. LOL~ and also, jh should really have gone la! would have benefited him quite abit i guess. :X but anyway, it was quite abit of deja vu feeling for me as some of the techniques of better communication skills were brought up. why? 'cause some of the stuff, love had already mentioned it to me or would have probably be already doing it! haha, i guess he would have been quite bored if he was there huh.
so why are men like waffles and women like spaghetti? well, for one, men process their thoughts in boxes, kinda like the boxes on a waffle. one aspect of their lives, one thought, one box. at any one time, they can only process one box at a time. meaning, one thought at 1 time. this makes them BAD at multitasking. women, on the other hand are like spaghetti because their thoughts are like spaghetti noodles. one spaghetti noodle in a plate of spaghetti is always touching all the other noodles. in that light, a woman's thoughts are always connected to one another. eg. a women (a mom) can be talking on the phone with a friend who's complaining to her about life, while watching tv and giving advice to that friend. at the same time, she can also be listing down a grocery list and even have time to signal to her children as they enter the house to get off the couch. AND she can also be closing the fridge door with her leg while opening the ovendoor with her free hand WHILE still holding a conversation on the phone! (believe me, i've seen my mom pull a similar feat ALOT of times before as well.) so, in short, women are GREAT at multitasking. But what happens when u try to put the waffle and the spaghetti together? Eww. they just won't go very well. that's why in general, guys find it hard to keep up with girls who are holding a conversation with them that ranges from a wide variety of topics (eg. work, school, girl friends, shopping, family etc). And girls cant understand why guys can stay on one topic/thought (their favourite box/topic, eg. football/basketball) for so so long. Bottomline for knowing these differences? so that you can understand the other party better and in turn help u communicate better and in turn forge better relationships with one another. Sounds gd huh? sadly eh, knowing and applying is really 2 different things man. lol~
alright. it's 3am. i better stop here, though i'm pretty sure i could go on and on and on..................
stupid stupid flu and blocked nose making me so blardy xing ku. and the macro thingy in words is driving me nuts! im so thankful im nt in computing man. i totally hate all the programming thingy. URGH! anyone can help me? i need to make the checkboxes in word mutally exclusive but dunno how to use macro to help me do it -_-x KNS! i shall go pop some clarinase and head to bed. *half dead*
i'm feeling terrible x_x my right nostril is blocked! i cant breathe~ it's so damn blocked yet it's runny. wah lao. it can't make up its mind about being runny or blocked. kns. what's worse, i ran outta cold medicine -_-x" i opened the medicine drawer and found nothing but a whole lot of paracetamol. jeez. nothing for my cold :( sobs.
was feeling peeved earlier about one of my biochem lab partner. really hate working with people i don't know well. they can 'tu' like siao. becos of her, i have to make a damn trip to science on thursday morning just to submit the report when i have NO freaking classes at science on that day! And you know what, her part of the report is only like to answer 1 pathetatic question which consist of a few lines nia. i was contemplating whether to do the question for her so that i can hand it up earlier and get the report off my chest but then i decided that i shouldn't do that. alright. got 8am class tml. long day ahead. oh how i hate wednesdays! especially next wednesday. sigh. *sniff*
been feeling abit of pressure from some people, which i don't really know (yet). it doesn't exactly sound logical right? like hey, since i dun really know them, why bother? but i guess i was being alittle overconcerned or probably i was thinking more of how love would feel about the issue. actually, he didn't feel that it was an issue in the first place but for me, on the other hand, i felt it was, from the very start, right even before we got together. it was the religion thing again. *gasp* yes, it's a very x 129382509843693 sensitive topic to even bring up. it wasn't that i didn't feel it before but somehow i guess the pressure just kept building up. and i guess when a girl from love's church suddenly asked him why was he together with a non-christian, something inside me just snapped. i talked to love about it last night and i did feel better about the whole thing. but wasn't fully assured i guess. then, at 11+, i just happened to msg my laopo, kenneth, on msn. he, like my other close friends were happy that i was going church. then somehow i just told laopo what was bugging me. he clarified some issues and cleared up the doubts. after talking to him, i was 101% reassured :D thanks alot laopo! ^_^ i guess love and laopo are both right. people question out of concern, and not because they're trying to prove something. and i tink i really need to not be so bothered by it. jeez. there are other more pending things to worry about. speaking of which. another week has gone by. and i really need a haircut. i really need sleep as well.