had a tough time last night. i guess i just couldnt stand the way things were going for me right now, such that i broke down. like always, you would place 2 options for me to consider and would want me to consider them carefully. anyway, i somewhat got back on track. much thanks to you people. grateful to the max. i guess there's nothing much to say now, 'cept to stay focused and work towards it.
i really dun want to end my day with disappointment. but really, that's what i've constantly been feeling the whole damn day today. SUX! maybe's its the expectations that i have for people as well as myself. i thought i had lowered them, but then come to think of it, i really havent.
organic chem test today totally sucked. i shalt elaborate further. lest i feel the whole wave of emotions all over again -_-x really gotta learn to study smart and not just waste precious time but not getting anything in. i hate to feel the way i felt back in sa, but somehow being in uni feels exactly like it. disappointment just follows when expectations are not met. urgh. help.
i bought a gift for someone. funny thing was, i didnt say anything but somehow ziqin knew what was REALLY on my mind when i was searching for the gift with her. anyway, due to certain reasons, the gift has to wait - till december. which in my opinion totally defeats its purpose but well, i guess i'll just have to respect the person's decision. disappointment yet again.
was talking to love on msn. he brought up something which happened today, after my chem paper. about my sms to him after the demoralising paper and his response. ah. i really didnt think so much into it already. but now that he brought it up, and i started to recall. the more i thought abt it the more disappointed and upset i got. this is really crappy. because i really thought i was fine. but then the more i thought abt it, the worse it got -_-" geez.
seriously jol, u gotta get a grip on your emotions man. and start doing your reports!!!!!!!!
whoa. time really flies man. almost exams and the end of the semester. my 2 very hectic weeks are drawing extremely near, starting next week. gonna be pushed off the edge of sanity soon. so many things to do. sigh. heaps of deadlines to meet (studies wise) and also friends' birthdays. bleah.
was in a really bad mood on saturday morning. woke up and my intuition was already nagging me that it was going to be a bad day. i ignored it and but later circumstances proved that it was right. damn. love was supposed to come meet me in the morning to go to school but he didnt turn up because he couldnt get up in time. i know it's really a small matter and i should just let it go but knowing me, it was much easier said than done. love smsed to apologise. one at 10+, second at 11+. i read the sms-es but didnt feel like replying. finally at 1210, i replied. because i thought he would be at his marketing makeup lecture already. after i sent the sms, i continued back to the semi-coma state of reading. moments later, something made me look up from my books. :O !! it was love. -_-x he came sci lib to find me and apologise. dang. though i was very surprised and glad in a way, frankly i didnt want to forgive him yet, or rather i wasnt ready to let the matter resolve so soon. anyway we went outside the library to talk for abit and yea, i decided i should just let the matter rest. there was, after all, nothing i can do to change anything. peeved or not, it was over.
organic chem is really a irony, there's nothing basic about it. both amanda and me study at the lib until want to ki siao liao. haiz. i left for home at around 7+ for dinner while amanda still continue to wage war with the text. went to the yih bus stop to wait for 96. i got on and was surprised to see 2 familiar faces. it was dan and junhao. they were also at school to study and were going to clementi central to eat. haiz, so many others also piah at school.
came home, settled down for my dinner and some tv. talked to rt for abit. then at 1plus love called me from kbox. he was with 'purple friend' at clementi kbox and 'purple friend' was singing some hokkien song in the background. sounded not bad at all! haha~ at around 2am, love popped over for abit before he took cab back home.
look at this. Rt was saying that he's going to his friend's daughter's birthday party. and the conversation ended up with...
Whore says:
quite a lot of frens got dotters and sons liao leh
Whore says:
haha
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
whoa
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
ur friends all so lao :X
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
LOL!
Whore says:
ok la
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
but actually we oso nt very young -.-
Whore says:
some of them our age also
Whore says:
haha
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
O_O
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
our age got child...
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
x.x
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
unimaginable.
Whore says:
ok wat
Whore says:
got younger than us kid in kindergarten liao
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
yea lor..
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
-_-
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
but whatever la
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
i dun foresee myself getting married anytime soon
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
dun even tok abt child rearing and maternity instincts.
Whore says:
aiyoh
Whore says:
you
Whore says:
i don't forsee you getting married in the next 5 years down the road
Whore says:
and i can safely say you won't marry your current bf
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
.
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
HUH.
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
HOW COME T_T
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
EXPLAIN URSELF.
Whore says:
knowing you
Whore says:
:P
jol`- basic organic chemistry is such an irony. says:
whoa. kns la lol
Whore says:
:P
abit surprised and taken aback by what he said, really. not because of what he said but because of how sure he sounded. bah. *strangles rt*
wow. my mood has been not bad today, for some odd, unexplainable reason. despite waking up late for discussion with the girls this morning (urgh, really wanna keel myself for that) i hopped on the bus and i saw amanda's friend, guan rui, on the bus. as there were not many seats left on the bus, i ended up sitting beside him and we started "complaining" about organic chem. lol~ Leslie is really driving all of us totally INSANE with organic chem test. 12 chapters, closed book. and damnit. so many damn things to remember. freak. dunno how am i going to pass la. haiz.
went to the sci lib with amanda to try to complete the field class report for biophysical. sigh. i had to do the intro and conclusion but i gt stuck for so damn long. wasted like half an hr staring at the readings, but i managed to write like 2 para for intro. -_-x" im such a gd time waster. ran into glen at the sci lib. talked to him abit. i was complaining to him that im gonna to die flat flat 'cause of the upcoming deadlines. then he was like "whoa year 1 only leh, so jia lat le ar" meh. anyway he was applying to go SEP in year 3. hmm, based on his grades i think he confirm get to go de la.
lsm pract today was another boring 1 >_< cos no hands on. just touch and observe only. somemore is touch those preserved and dead specimens. bleah. after that had essay practice again. eww. i really hate essays. after that, talked to geraldine till i got to the sci bus stop.
gonna meet love for a quick meet later :) its so funny that we both thought of the same thing but didnt say it out till the very end. lol. anyway, gonna go study at the lok kok sci lib tml. despite all the lok-kok ness, i still feel that sci lib is more conducive than arts. geez.
was supposed to cover 2 chapters of chemistry last night. but guess what. i told love that i'll talk to him on the phone at 12mn and then i sat on the couch to study at 11pm. Bad idea. 'cause the next thing i knew, i opened my eyes and it was 1.30am. O_O i dozed off for 1 and a half hrs! GOSH. WHAT A WASTE OF PRECIOUS TIME! anyway, i checked my hp. it was dead. i charged the phone and read the smses. lol. got love worried for a moment there. haha~ suddenly disappear. :X
anyway, was late for stats lecture today. couldnt wake up in time. chemistry lec and tutorial was somewhat demoralising as usual. haiz. and today then i found out that there's LSM1103 C.A. on 8Nov. How nice. 30oct Organic chem test. 31st Geog Field class report. 7Nov Geog Term paper. 8Nov Bio D essay test. 10Nov Sociology 2000 word term paper. Wow. really PWNED. so by the time i met love at 4pm, my mood had somewhat already hit rock bottom. ~_~
urgh. i suddenly totally lost the patience and mood to continue blogging. shall just end it here.
love came over early this morning with breakfast ^-^ so sweet of him. absolutely love him to bits. lol~
today was an even week wednesday. madness day. no math tutorial at 10am today so its a straight 12-6 lesson for me. -_-x had my last socio tutorial. was all alone for tutorial today 'cause lin was too tired to come for tutorial. as usual, tried to blend into the white wall by keeping quiet or hide at the back of the class in order to stay unnoticed. :X but the as4 classroom is so tiny ._. want to hide also not easy. the topic for today's discussion was how important is parental socialisation? what role it plays on issues like traditional gender roles, ethnic consciousness and marriage values/dating freedom. for the ethnic consciousness issue, i realised my parents didnt really make me feel very 'chinese' in that sense. for one, i dont speak chinese since young; i grew up speaking english. only when i went to school that i started to pick up chinese. as for the chinese festivals, dont really celebrate them much, except for chinese new year. haha~
the practical class for biophysical today was a field class and it was -_-x" ...why everytime i go field trip sure rain huh? that time changi beach also it rained, today field class oso. sway man. got really drenched at the end of the class, though amanda was kind enough to share umbrella with me >_< but both of us still got wet 'cause the stupid rain was just too heavy!
came back home, came online. did something which has somewhat become much of a habit. i think i should really stop doing it. because of the effect it has on me everytime i read it. i really shouldnt be so affected by it or anything. im supposed to be insensitive, remember? besides, there are much more important stuff to worry about..........
i just simply hate my school life now. *whines* exams, assignment deadlines. urgh. dread dread dread. >:(
went to changi airport on sunday with love. man, i so wanna go overseas after exams! korea, taiwan, aussie. any one of these 3 places would be fantastic! woot! 
:P
monday, as usual, had school till 4pm. however, the socio lec ended early at 3.10pm. but when me and lin headed towards the bus stop, it started to pour. and it got really heavy. ah, in the end both of us still braved thru the rain to get to the nearest bus stop (the one nearest to central forum). i took 95 from there just to get to the opposite bus stop to take 96 -.-" geez. bo bian, the rain was just too heavy.
in the evening, love came over and we went to IMM for dinner. was deciding between fish & co's seafood platter for 2 or the HK cafe beside Daiso. in the end we chose the latter though we craved for the seafood platter :P the food there is not bad but not fantastic until like WHOA. the serving is a tad too small for my liking. :X and the price isnt very cheap. so adding all up, quite bo hua. :/ after that we walked around imm abit then sent me home at around 10plus. we wandered around downstairs to find a place to sit down and talk. we ended up at the basketball court right beside my old primary sch. after awhile, got 3 small 'punks' came to the fitness corner beside the basketball court. then they were like "eh do pull up leh! u can or nt?" in chinese. they wanted to, but i tink they saw the both of us. then one of them said "wah, do and let those 2 ppl see ar? so throw face leh" then i was giggling liao. i almost wanted to wave to them, tell them that i cant see their faces clearly so it's okay, they can go ahead. lol. but in the end me and dear decided to go to another place to talk and let them have the place. we talked about family, relatives and cousins. weird huh. i wonder whether it's just a coincidence or what. how come female cousins when they're young, they used to have this 'thing' for their older guy cousin. maybe some still do now :X lol~
met amanda, pam and yuting to go to sungei buloh today. we got lucky, got on some guided tour thingy. but wow, i cant believe how nice sungei buloh is now. i remember when i went there the last time, was just wilderness and me. LOL. no proper sign, no proper bus stop. haha~ the mangrove at sungei buloh is really just WOW. much better than the pathetatic ones at pasir ris >.> and they have all the 32 species found in asia! cool~ but eh, i want to see sea otter. didnt get to see at all :( i wanted to walk more also but.....we all saw this "watch for crocodiles" sign. all got scared -.-" but seriously, gotta be damn heng to be able to see one. LOL~
YAY!!!! meiyuan just msn-ed me and told me she'll be in singapore this saturday! woot~ but...aiyah -_- timing is somewhat bad. this period is quite a stressful one. bah. but nevertheless, i'd definitely make time to catch up with her :)
oh, the stats mid term test results out le. 23/40! I PASSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO HAPPY~~~ but ar. LOL. only just passed. quite sux0r. but nvm. at least i passed T_T ...Next giant hurdle - CM1121 Mid term. on monday. URGHHhhhhhh
friday
the day started off well. love came over in the morning, though he didnt catch any shuteye the night before 'cause he was rushing his history assignment. poor baby. anyway we had breakfast and later just spent time together.
i left for sch at around 1plus, to go for the field trip. i really dislike bio D practicals. im always the 自闭 & antisocial self on fridays, during pract. i dunno why. i just cant seem to click with my group people. so basically the field trip just kinda sucked. maybe im being to skeptical about it but haiz. i dunno la. however, on a lighter note, it was really an enriching trip. (am i contradicting myself?) 'cause i saw so many varieties of marine life at changi beach! OH MAN~! Didnt know changi beach could see so many types of fishes lor! Each group was to send some ppl to go into the water and using a giant net, catch whatever they could. Basically there was ALOT of algae (seaweed) but if u look closely. GOODNESS! So many types of fishes man~ There was catfish, scorpion fish, tripod fish, sea cucumber, baby baracuda, baby eel, combjelly (a type of plankton), crabs, small squids and the list goes on. wah. really a great variety of marine life. And we oso learnt how their habitat, surroundings influences the way they look like (life cycle, form and structure). eg how a surface dwelling fish has features different from that of a bottom dwelling fish etc. interesting stuff!
side note: really could have updated this on friday. but i was feeling really torn(?), and not in the mood to update. due to there being many things on my mind. really, the worse kind of doubt is self doubt.
saturday
compared to my friday, my saturday was a completely different mood and feeling altogether! woohoo~..wahahahahha~ :P what a day man! i woke up at 11am or so. pulled my mom to my house nearby coffeeshop to eat duck porridge and dim sum (siew mai & chicken roll). but mom wanted to eat at outram park hawker centre. okie, so we went there.
reached there le, ordered cha kway teow and yong tau fu. damn nice man! then later 2nd round was DESSERT & Dim sum (叉烧包 & ha gao)! :D woot. the 叉烧包 is Ownage. nv eaten such nice 叉烧包 before sia. for dessert, i just had the usual 芝麻糊 (black sesame paste).
whee~ and after tat really filling brunch, it was off to SHOPPING - serious retail therapy! saw and tried many many clothes man~ wahahah! bought the lot which i tink were nice. hehe. and i finally got myself a new swimsuit. can throw my old, very chui one already. woohoo~ tink both mom and i spent like $280++ bucks combined. O_O! that's just insane 'cause it's totally unlike me and my mom. mom said that next time dun wan go out with me le. LOL. yea, actually im oso quite surprised i bought so many stuff. damn, something must really be upsetting me man, LOL!
after all the shopping from 1plus to 6.30pm++, i accompanied mom to eat dinner at chinatown before heading back to clementi to meet up with dear and the guys (dan and junhao). side note: you know ar, guys can REALLY REALLY be DAMN indecisive when it comes to deciding a place to hang out. LOL. there were like suggestions but each suggestion had an objection too! hahaha~ in the end, we headed for tiong, hoping to catch a movie as well as get a dessert. bah...no luck with the movie. so didnt managed to catch any movie. then we went to food court to grab a bite. the guys had dessert while me and love shared fried dumpling noodles. after that, we went to mac for ice cream :D (actually wanted to ben & jerrys from supermarket de, even koped the plastic spoons for it liao but in the end....see what i mean by indecisive. LOL its oso fickle! :X ) me and love were walking towards mac, dan n jh following behind. then suddenly both of us spotted a seat at the left end of the mac so we rushed like aunties to get that seat. me and love managed to reach it. i pulled one of the chairs out and then suddenly i saw someone stand beside me and pull the other chair beside me. i was like HUh. who's this person huh. so "auto", come and snatch my seats sia. i was about to look up and scold that person liao. but instead when i looked up, i got stunned. LOL! it was my stupid toot & 笨 tudi! LOL. what a surprise man~ he was there to watch death note with his friend. but he really scared me la! hahahah i thought which 莫名其妙 person, want to sit at my seat sia~
after that, we headed for home. dear sent me back. we reached my place downstairs and found a place to sit down. we had a really long heart to heart talk. Sort of resolved the concerns that were troubling us today and yesterday. Ah, im really thankful for times like this. really felt much much better after the talk :)
okay la. i had better end here liao. sian. getting damn late and typed this entry for SO darn long already. -_- my shoulders are still hurting from the sunburnt :( better get some sleep.
my day was off to a bad start, but ended off really nicely :)
i woke up at 0715 today -_-x was on the phone till 0330 last night. i dunno why my alarm didnt ring at 0635 this morning. AND my mom woke me up at 0710. AIYO. i literally jumped outta bed, got ready and flew outta the house. swallowed my breakfast and took 96 to sch. managed to reach lect at 0810. i sat beside the 'extra' and i did something mean. when i was gonna flip out the table, it hit him. i merely gasped but i didnt apologise :X
chem pract today was good. because i didnt screw up! haha~ and my lab partners were great :) helped me take the apparatus, do together also. hehe. BUT today 我被TA讲. sianz. me and jas just took off our goggles for a few minutes nia (cos it was giving both of us headaches liao, too tight and we were doing calculations), TA came over and said "where's ur goggles?" to both of us. jas very calm, simply walked away. i made a :/ face and he said "dun gimme that face" WAH LAO EH. 气啊! grr~
after school, went over to love's place. spent some quality time with him, like always. we ate alot of junk for dinner - wan tan mee, chicken cutlet and tissue prata! 
very unhealthy huh. :P after dinner, we took a stroll to go see the old sajc site @2 malan road. woo~ *sigh of nostalgia* brings back memories man. the days my class had PE and played soccer on the field. wah seh. one whole bunch of girls screaming like siao. i think whole school knew my class man. cos it was the oddest combi class (Cmaths, econs, chem, bio)and was a class full of crazy screaming girls+1 not very quiet guy. the days my class had PE was simply damn fun. run from one end of the field to the other, screaming and laughing like crazy ppl. and our screams n laughter is damn loud and scary, can be heard from the canteen and nearby classrooms. hahaha~ then we would slack and chit chat at the very cooling gallery everytime after PE. ahhh...those were the fun days in jc. hmm, what else do i recall about my jc days. oh ya, i remember how we PON orientation. One whole group of people, think got like 20+++, go and crawl through this big hole in the fence at the back of the school. super cute. ah. we stood at the gate of the school and dear and i both started wondering. we were in the same school for 2 years. though different class, different cca, we had common friends. but somehow we just didnt get to know each other at all o.O started to wonder what would have happened if we had gotten to know each other in jc instead, perhaps wouldnt even have got together at all. HAHA! oh well. That's just life i guess.
ahh...tml field trip to changi. dunno whether i can survive the adversities of the changi beach. then there's my tummy. feels like im gonna go down with gastric flu or sth. i visited the bathroom 4 times and counting today liao lor. goodness. what is wrong @_@ and i realised that my shoulders are red & sunburnt. they hurt >_< wah...if tml i get burnt somemore then i GG le. ROASTED! aiyah and hor. just now when i went to the storeroom to search for a cap for tml's field trip, the huge luggage bag at the top of the shelf suddenly dropped down. missed my back by half an inch and my head by less than 20cm i think. O_O my mom tio chua and asked whether i was hurt. i was O_O! and i answered that my entire life flashed past before my eyes ~_~
currently listening to Jie Lun's 2nd album - Fantasy. Mm. this album brings back old, bittersweet memories as well as a sense of nostalgia. :)
anyway, i went swimming with ling today! we swam from 12 to 2. actually we talked more than we swam -_-x but hey, the pool was so empty today lor~ shiok! had the whole side of the pool to ourselves. there was only like 3 other people (excluding us) in the deep pool! how rare is that~ and today, for once got no ah peks *hurhur* instead, the 3 other ppl are young guys. gt one quite nt bad but then again i cant see properly la, cos nv wear specs :X and as i said earlier, we talked alot of crap. stuff that i cant find any other girlfriend to talk abt ;) wahahaha! thx for being there gal~
after my swim, i headed to sch for 4-6 Bio d lec. was feeling very refreshed after the swim man~ woot! i tink i shld really exercise more often. okay lah, shall not let this 精神 go to waste!
i chao da liao -_-" 
can u see that tan line @_@
hope it stays :/
i've just swept the whole house. my blogging times are getting weirder and earlier. was supposed to study last night but guessed what. didnt come online but got glued to the tv -_-x was watching america's next top model and then the last episode of grey's anatomy. was feeling very sad for Izzie. the man she had tried to save; the man she was going to marry, died :( Meredith still got stuck between the 2 guys (Finn, the vet and Shepherd, the surgeon) and the show just ended with her standing between the both of them and not knowing who to choose. DANG~~~~~ @_@
had a good talk with joshua, daniel's dota buddy yesterday. he told me how his gf of 3 and half yrs cheated on him overseas and went for an ang moh. i guess that's a classic example of how long distance relationships dont work out. :X he was angry of course, not because she left him for someone else. but because she wasnt honest with him, didnt tell him that she had fallen for another someone. was really quite "........." when he told me that. but well, that "lesson" made him a better person. he now knows exactly what he wants in life and how he is going to work towards his goals.
some random pictures of the 2 stuffed animals~ 
*hugs*
okay. shall end here. my throat is feeling so chui. stupid haze from the stupid people that are trying to kill us all! ~!@#$%^&*
the psi reads 130. O_o really? no, seriously. really? 'cause it sure looks like it should be 150 instead. so damn hazy la! stupid haze, go away can? stupid people always burning the trees. they never learn.
had my stats mid-term today. 1 word - pwned. sigh. i cant blame anyone but myself i guess. lack of preparation. and i realised my utter repugnance for probability too, esp. conditional probability. eww. however, chem lec today was hilarious, with a huge doze of sarcasm as well. but it was just funny really. lol. how he switched on the lights just to see the fear in our eyes when he gives us on-the-spot questions and goes up to our seats and asks us for answers to those questions. or how he says that most of us dont know anything we have learnt/he has taught from the beginning and how we all have the goldfish mentality! lol. actually he's really putting us down huh, always calling us kindergarden children, compare our mentality to that of goldfishes and what not. but well, at least it was a relief from the "traumatic" experience we had during stats mid-term test. -_-x
oh ya. went to vivocity (finally) with love yesterday. was packed and crowded, lots of eye candy :X we caught death note! i was (desperately)dying to watch it; and even though the best seats were 3 rows from the screen, i didnt mind. lol. dear could see how badly i wanted to watch it too, so he also gave in to me. muahaha! though i bet he was quite :/ abt the seats. as for getting any food there, i only have ~!@#$%^&* to say. There. i said it. CRAZY LONG QUEUES. Not to mention food @food republic at the top level is INSANELY PRICED. Like Hello? $6.90 for 1 bowl of Laksa. "Thanks" huh. Your Laksa gravy got gold bits inside issit? -_-" ridiculous man.
finally i feel the heat. i think after today's traumatic experience, i now really want to get things done. less internet for me i guess. but more exercise please! ask the haze to clear by wednesday hor, i want to go swimming again :D
tired from the field trip.
headache after taking the nap.
irritated by the construction work nearby.
got worried over nothing.
dont let me get me.
geez! hahaha~ am actually supposed to be studying for my stats exam, which is next monday. but i got distracted (as usual) and went to "spy" my friends' blogs. actually not really spy la, is more like guang ming zheng da de visit. haha~ and i realised the date was oct 13, friday! eek. okay la, so far nth unlucky happen yet. hoho. im now at love's place. he's sleeping like a log while im messing around with his computer. his ie really ki siao 1. blogger is in CHINESE lor. wahahahaha~ alright. update later. there's a geog field trip to pasir ris tml. *yawnz* :( starting to dislike field trips liao, they always come with strings attached - ASSIGNMENTS! booo!
wanted to do a short and quick blog entry before i rush my chem pract report and tutorial, both due tml. but apparently, stupid things happened. my ie wont load the "create post" page. wth. *kicks ie* (im using firefox now)
am feeling quite demoralised and low today. it simply doesnt help that im also really lacking far behind my work. sigh. anyway, there's a geography mod field trip+assignment this saturday, stats paper next monday and my socio term paper where the specific title is STILL pending. wah sianzation. ahhhhhh.
something entirely random. today me, lin and duckie went on a mini-adventure. after lunch at arts, we accompanied lin to the students centre to submit a form. the old student's centre was at engineering block. They have shifted to yih, BUT they didnt update it on the form. -_-x SO, we took a bus to the ulu-ated bus stop at engine, to find that the students centre is at yih. ahh... so bo bian, had to take a bus back to yih. on board the bus, i saw this:
There is a last line that is HAND WRITTEN and it reads 'because some people dont wash their hair!!!'
LOL! Laugh until pengz la! and guess what. when we reached yih, we were talking and forgot to press the bell. so the driver didnt stop at yih but continued on AND BROUGHT US RIGHT BACK TO WHERE WE STARTED - ARTS! LOL @_@ so stupidly funny man, like 3 idiots! ahahahah!
HAPPY 1st MONTH ANNIVERSARY, MY LOVE~ ^_^
okay. it's really 1 day late liao -_-x 'cause by the time i got down to do some decent blogging, already wasted a whole lot of time, until past midnight. hah~ although i should say my energy level today really hit a record low -_-x but at least we managed to spend some quality time together :)
there's a whole load full of things going through my mind right now and but i cant seem to pen it all down. and i also dun really have the time to. so i'd try my best to keep it really short and sweet.
List of things to do:
yAY! today was a good day! :D why? 'cos the psi today was low! the air's cleared quite alot :P but whoa. sunday's almost over. geez, which means monday's coming :( boooo~ sigh. why do my weekends always zip past so quickly. yet again, i didnt get any work done. aiyo. jin jia lat. aaaahhhhhhhhhhhh *pulls hair*
had a good talk with dear last night, abt some issues that were bugging us. 不知不觉 we talked from 12.30++ to 4am. aiyo. so obviously both of us were dead beat when we met for lunch today. dear came after church and reached around 11.35am. we wanted to eat botak jones (american food near my house de coffeeshop) but it only opens at 12noon. so we ended up walking around at clementi central. then suddenly we thought of going to turf city for fun, go see seafood o.O
we got lucky. waited for few minutes nia the shuttle bus came liao. reached there, walked around. it was a first for me, never been there before :X went to see the seafood. O_O saw some quite unusual stuff, not commonly found at those 煮炒 stores. eg. snow crab, alaska king crab, geoduck etc. after that we took the shuttle bus back to clementi, again we didnt have to wait for the bus, heh. lucky lucky~ anyway we got back to clementi and had our lunch at botak jones. dear had a burger and i had fish & chips. the serving was insanely huge. i couldnt finish my food at all.
after lunch we just chilled downstairs till 4plus then dear sent me back. i was so tired that when i reached home i just hit the sack for a long and much needed nap. we have been really spending alot of time going out together. although im not complaining at all :P *hee* and feeling emotionally nourished but it's undeniable that the body cant take it. lol. it's just really physically tiring to go out everyday @_@
on to other random stuff! death note anime is finally out! the movie will be out soon as well~ woot! i wanna catch it :P oh, and i just watched last monday's episode of grey's anatomy. O_O what a surprising turn of events. you can never predict how the story is gonna twist. now im looking forward to tml's episode.
i realised my entries have become really long o_O with all the words+pictures. geez.
more pictures -_-x 
we were feelin' lucky. but bo kui leh. sianz. LOL
fish n chips
cheeseburger
me :D
love ^-^
could have been a nice shot but alas....my fringe....-_-"
:D
huh o_O?
11pm already. i shall go off and get ready for bed. tired. and 8am class tml x_x oh, anyone been to vivo city yet? i want to go also leh!
woke up at around 11.30am. went down to city hall with duckie to meet di n mh. mh woke up at 12.30 -_-x so me, dear n di met up first. we went to new york x2 for lunch :) we got there, waited for mh. then the waiter came and gave us candy floss xD 
i got the super huge one o_O
potato wedges~ di ordered this because he saw the word "bravo" ...dots -_-x
after lunch, we went next door to hmv for abit. was browsing around all the new cds; its been ages since i stepped into a cd store. then something caught my eye o_O! It was the picture of the handsome guy that sang at the yellow ribbon project. nathan. i showed love, then i said i wanna go see can hear the album mah. so i went over to the jazz section. love was right behind me, trying to find the album first and dun let me listen -_-x LOL. 'cause im so smitten by nathan. :X
we left hmv and walked to esplanade. i suggested going to max brenner, mh suggested to go to chocolate bar. guess what. when we reached there liao, me and mh realised we were talking abt the same place la! so DANG. wahahhahaha! *PENGZ* 
chocolate fondue!
i had to ask da 3 of them to PAUSE while i took this shot. wahahaha~ im such a spoiler! :X
savouring every bit of the chocolate. Mmm~
mh had to leave early. then after that the 3 of us just wandered around marina square aimlessly. ~_~ at around 6, me n dear headed over to ps. wanted to find t-shirts but didnt see anything nice. so in the end we had dinner then after that i went home while love went to join his friends for dota.
the haze situation is really getting very bad. see this: 
MY GOODNESS LA! THIS IS ESPLANADE AREA FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE. supposed to have nice view de, with stupid haze, see nothing sia! -_-x haiyo. wish it'll faster clear up. or i foresee alot of people getting sick :(
bah. these few days have been really hazy :( weather and air outside is bad bad bad. boo.............
went to love's place today. helped him with the klepon making for his Bahasa class. looked damn easy but when we tried to roll the flour mixture into small pieces....the pieces just CHUI! too dry le. so added some water then in the end too damp, it kept sticking to the hands. pengz! cmi man. anyway we made abt 60+ small balls, do until want to ki siao. 'cause keep making and rolling hor, the flour mixture wont finish, like never ending 1. madness! anyway this are some of the "rejects" because the brown sugar leaked outta the balls O_O 
The Rejects.
in the evening, dear went to school for project. i went home to shower then left for holland v to meet ling. saw her brother and his gf there too. haha so qiao man. anyway, we ate katong laksa and chatted over dinner. halfway, i saw 2 familiar figures. it was peiyan and elayna! haha so qiao again! then anyway, ling and i chatted about her studies and future. with regards to her decision, i wasnt shocked or surprised but rather am glad that she made it. i would say it was a very brave step to take and that she has my moral support :) there's more to life than studies and career. truly, life is just too damn short to be feeling miserable or unhappy.
walked around holland v while waiting for love to come join us. was talking about ling's good friend, a guy from her jc class and his relationship. whoa. seriously the thing he said/did and how he acted really crashed every bit of good impression i had of him. didnt expect him to be those "player" kind, 'cause he wasnt handsome nor rich and he looked like those 感情专一 kind. Haiz. 真是人不可貌相! soon after, love came and the 3 of us went haagen daz :D we ordered banana split (we ate it up and forgot to take pic of it -_-x") and chatted~ it was not too bad, but the new york brownie we had the other time was more r0xor! walked around holland v abit. stopped at the magazine stand and ling took this super funny shot for us. aiyo! really cmi la. i was so-so-so paiseh -_-x
dang...
after that we went to essential brew. went to 2nd floor to chill. woot. seems like a few potential eye candy but didnt really bother to see carefully :X anyway we ordered smiley fries & calamari. 
Smiley fries! :)
Calamari! Yumz :P~
Ling with the Smiley fries
Super funny. I kept laughing non-stop before this shot was taken. 'cause Ling was like "aye, hold the fries nearer to the camera. right abit. higher abit." lol~ keep adjusting until i wan to pengz le! and got ppl at the back looking at 2 toot ppl posing with fries liao. lol~
Eek! Defective smilies! (But way crisper than the normal ones :D)
disgusting smiley that vomits blood! made us laugh until wanna die LOL
吐白沫！
really tired man. want to sleep liao. going out again tml! :)
a great big thank you to mh for the oreo cheesecake he made, though i have yet to taste it xD
had my first CA test yesterday (wed). 20% MCQ, open book. you could say it was easy but ah, sometimes i really just HATE MCQ tests. I always feel that its more like testing your ability to "guess" rather than test what you really know. oh well. i know i already got at least 2 questions wrong x_x
woke up slightly later today, 7am. Had breakfast at 7.20, and i still managed to reach lect before 8 :D oh. and geez. the buay zi dong guy did it again! he sat at "our" row, leaving us 4+1 seats. urgh. *stares* chem lect today was as usual, another 1 and a half hours of listening to his scottish accent and trying very hard and failing to understand what he is saying. hai~
why i simply hate odd week thursdays.
one word. WAR. *BIG BIG SIGH* i really dread chemistry practicals in uni >_< always feel so chui after that. why? 1) i always screw up. 2) im always a nervous, panicky wreck. 3) i always need help! :( today was terrible. solubility test & recrystallisation so simple also do until so long. Hai. and everything kept going wrong wrong wrong. T_T and hor, eww. i realised my techniques really sux0r! love says its because i very 粗心. ah, sianz. anyway, 2 more practical sessions to go! dang. that also means, 5 more weeks to exams? -_- darn. damn the time man.
i finally have the complete 11 episodes of 1 litre of tears, grateful thanks to doggie :D watched the first episode twice, last night and today, with dear. the show is quite sad. doggie says after the 3rd episode it would get even more sad, like damn x1375937487 sad liao. hmm. anyway, i got into an argument with mom just now. geez. i know she had a hard day at work, but i didnt exactly have an easy day at school either. first she complained about the rice that i boiled. then i shot back with some attitude remark (yes, its THAT attitude again). then there were exchanges of hostile remarks but the ultimate one - the straw that broke the camel's back, came from her. it really shut me up. i think she sorta regretted saying it because soon after she tried to "revive" the conversation but it was just too little, too late. i just totally ignored her. haiz. at times, i really cant stand my own attitude and temper.
it's getting late. there's no school tomorrow for me *yay* :) can spend some time with love~ though i think er, we have really been spending ALOT of time together already. lol. ah. the only thing that's stopping me from doing what i want to do now is ..... SLEEP. OMG. that sounds so crazy right? That totally doesnt sound like it would come from a person who enjoys sleeping. But yet, its true lah. If i didnt have to go to bed now, i would be doing what i want to do :P oh well.
i was the earliest to reach stats lect today, surprisingly. so i booked 4 other seats. the very "extra" guy came in soon after. he looked at me, i looked back and he proceeeded to sit 1 row infront of me. LOL. i guess he got traumatised by the "incident" in the previous lecture before term break. lesson learnt? NEVER, and i mean NEVER sit in between 5 girls that you totally don't know.
went to technoedge for lunch today. first time there. seats were really spacious, but the queuing area simply sux. super cramped. the grilled chicken set that me and py had was not bad. oh, for a change, we stepped into 男人国 - ENGINE! haha~ the whole canteen was full of guys and more guys. geez. really very different from arts and science canteen.
went to the lib to check out some socio books. well, they're interesting to read and know about. but to write a term paper. gawd. just keel me man. anyway, some interesting points to note.
Homogamy refers to the tendency of persons to marry others who are similiar to themselves, in some way or another. Although we often say love is blind, there is really nothing 'blind' about mate selection. It all boils down to homogamy. 2 people with same/similar education level get married = homogamy. 2 people with similar income date each other = homogamy again!
Dating. Social Exchange theory. "Give and Take" According to this theory, the basis of most relationships is where partners believe the relationship will provide them with the best possible "deal" - high rewards, low cost. (Sounds super UNromantic right? Haha, dont blame me. Blame the sociologists! :X but if u think abt it, it's true. -_-x) Equity Theory. 1) The greater the perceived equity, the happier the relationship. 2) When people find themselves in an INequitable relationship, they will become distressed. The greater the inequity, the greater the distress. 3) People in an inequitable relationship will try to eliminate the distress by restoring equity.
WHOA. I better stop it with the sociology. haha~ Really makes me think alot deeper abt human relations, from a "detached" pov. Funny thing, sociology is. You always end up with more questions than answers after reading/discussing about it.
Anyway, i met han at orchard for dinner. :) basically we just did some catching up. glad that she didnt look so tired compared to the last time we met. probably because she's more adjusted to her job already. dear came to orchard to meet me after his project discussion. (: on the way back, my beloved di called me. call me nia 第一句话就suan我了 -_-x haha~ must whack him to death when i meet him on saturday!
very hungry now. sigh. but lazy to cook anything to eat. i finally finished dl-ing the 16mb lect notes for tml -_-x geez. hmm, saturday. i still cant find whatever i wanted to find. urgh. must find it before sat. 怎么办啊!
whoa. seems like the whole recess week just zipped past man! now already gonna go back to school already sia~ geez =.=" time really flies. anyway, it has been a good week :) in very weird gamer speak: pwnage week! -why? 'cause love & i met up everyday this week, lol~ madness but yeah -_-x"
went to love's place to study today. said hi to his parents and his cute (wahahhahah!) younger brother :P hmm, i bought honey dew and grapes and hello panda (for the kid) then they gave me alot of food to eat in return. so sweet of them :)
wah sai~! almost 12 midnight le! sian. i hate it when my time just whisk past when im online. bah! next time i really should heed love's advice and not come online if i got early class tml -_-x" but then also, a phone call came in. haiz. okay la. im gonna end the call and go offline. nitez!