I'm feeling like all is lost. It probably is. I almost want to cry out loud but i don't even have the energy or any right to do so. Had the second biochem test today, which was then that i found out what i really don't know, terribly late if you ask me. Again, i second guess-ed myself and it cost me some marks. WTH. i want to knock myself silly! Anyway, whatever i expected to be tested didn't come out at all and what i least expected, did. Just great man. Way to go, lecturers~ I just couldn't believe my eyes when i saw the SAQ. Hello? Am i sitting for the right paper huh? Jeez, just goes to show how prepared i was. Went to check my marks for the first biochem test. Sigh. My mood got even worse -_-lll I was spot-on for the prediction of my marks. damnit. i don't want and don't need to be spot-on on these type of things! it would be a whole load better if i was spot-on for exam/test questions, yes? !@~#$%^&*
After that i foresee myself going through what i felt at the end of last semester. what happened to my biostats last sem was gonna probably gonna happen EXACTLY the same way for my biochem. (pardon me for the bad grammar, really couldn't care less to elaborate further) I am so dead, so screwed, so messed up that i cant and no one can help me get out of this mess. I thought about many things. Spent the whole night thinking about stuff. About my mom, about my dad, about what mh said to me at the end of last semester, about the talk love and i had after the results of last sem were released, about secondary school, about jc....The more i thought, the more hopeless i felt. No one can help me, not even God. I'm truly alone. I really feel like giving up, yet i can't........