last nite was a nightmare. if not, it was hell-ish. it was like history repeating itself, 'cept in a more serious, devastating way carrying with it even more dire consequences. or maybe it was the bad karma, that had finally caught up with me. whatever it is, my indecisiveness, me being an irresponsible, immature and self-centered brat, with one queer perception of relationships have yet again caused 2 other people to get hurt. *experiencing the writers' block, so many things racing through my mind, yet i cant pen them down*
11:56am jp just said this to me : Girls will always be girls, will never get devoted. I thought you're different, but you're also the same. haha~
11:57 bo wei gong. dont know how to reply him.
11:58 he says sorry.
haiz. maybe someone should just come and slap me awake. maybe the pain will make me wake up. what am i thinking, more importantly, what am i going to do and what do i really want. i dont even have proper answers for the latter. the heart knows what it wants but the brain is thinking of something else. they are not agreeing with each other @_@
gonna go get lunch. and walk in the rain/storm. be back later.