my day started off okay, but ended terrible. you'll find out as i blog on. as usual had problem getting outta bed this morning. reached lab. one of the persons who opens the door for us at the lab brought us roti prata. very sweet of her. the prata was really yummy too. anyway, ended work early today. headed to cine to meet pig & his frens. then the 8 of us had sushi buffet for lunch, at suki sushi. remind me NEVER to go there again, thank you. after that we went taka. walk ard aimlessly, bought a top from f0x and after that got a present for mom. went to mac to sit down & talk. ard 8 liddat, they suddenly say they wanna go see gh3ys at the gh3y pub. diaoz. so odd but since most of us were curious, we headed to the shopping centre opp. reds cafe. ahem ahem. we stayed there for like 15mins? or maybe more i dunno. but it was quite early, so we only saw a few. was quite funny and yet in a way awkward. since there were 3 couples & 2 guys in the grp, they wanted to ask the 2 guys to go stand ard, see if anyone approach them LOL. but of cos the 2 guys protest. ha. anyway we left soon after cos see a few liao and din noe wad to do already. after that we went home. dear sent me back. on the bus, we had a slight argument & i teared. sigh. there was this disturbing silence as dear walked me to my block. when we reached the void deck, we talked it out and after that okay liao. i reached home, everything was still fine. mom was watching tv. i went to shower and after that wanted to watch 1 episode of MAR. i just pressed 'play' (read: i had just started looking at the opening theme) when pig called & say he going out supper. okay, b4 tat he kept complaining & whining that he's damn tired. and now he said he's going for supper with another group of his frens. ok fine. so i hear him out. ok, he will be getting a lift there and back. fine. cant say anymore abt him. and suddenly, i went to open my big mouth and asked "i wanna go oso, can or nt!?" of course, he said sure. BUT then now the problem shifts to my side. went to ask mom whether i could go out for supper. and omg, that was the straw that broke the camel's back. everything after that, i dun wish to elaborate. all i feel like saying is that it sparked off a huge forestfire and sent me sobbing of course. anyhow, the worse culprit is my mom. i cannot freaking stand it. she says i have a bad temper but hers is so much worse. even pig who was originally angry wif me for losing my temper oso tone down so much already. sigh. just very very angry & utterly disappointed wif my mom for saying the awful things she said. i was so pissed off, i really felt like smashing the gift that i got for her to bits. (her birthday's tml btw) i noe i sound like a bad daughter; pig said i shld just let her be, let her continue scolding, since it is her birthday, but i cant, and i didnt. wad she said was really truly annoying and made me damn pissed. wad kind of stupid stubborn metality she has. i cant deny wad she said had some truth in it but it's only SOME. she, however doesnt care to even hear my point of view. she din live the life of an only child, so she din noe. she does nt have a say. i do. but she refuses to listen. argh, i hate that!.....
i dun wanna say anymore. cant go on already. it's been 2 hrs since the argument. i shld just try to forget it and go to bed or something. just realised i forgot to paragraph this entry. i'll just end with the stuff that i have been tinking and need to take note of. 1) The stuff that mom & dear said; that was EXACTLY the same - Over-dependence. 2) Mental strength. (This includes NOT tearing over anything that frustrates me). 3) Basically, 2 words. grow up. 4) Trust has to earned. 5) I need to try hard to -1), ++2), +++3). oh ya, and oso, i guess it was kind of hard on pig. while me and my mom were fighting, he sorta got sandwiched in between. i hate it when she picks on him. haiz. thankfully he din lose temper and yet could still calmly remind me to cool down. i hope he's not hurt by the nasty things my mom said. *big sigh* bottomline is, in future when u ppl have kids, dun ever ever ever if possible, have only 1 child. dont tink 'oh, but liddat i'll be paying more attention on him/her wad. isnt it better?' it's not better,okay? it's super stressed on the child and the parents as well. in fact it's detrimental. remember that.