okay. have nt been updating for quite long. too tired to update. wake up everyday at 7+, reach nni by 9am. everyday end "work" (fyp) at 6+, reach home at 7+pm. tired like siao. now i already stoning, just woke up from dozing off on the couch. waiting for 11pm to come. watch last exile and shaman king den go slp. zZz. so tired. eyes cannot open.
today, did 1 trial of behavior testing on the 12 mice. sian. one of the stupid mouse crawl into my right sleeve again. kns. yesterday is baby mouse, today is adult mouse. URGH. fan si le. and today number 12 mouse again jump out of the 5arm. den gotta chase it ard the whole room. stupid ~!@#@%#$^$&*. sometimes, when see it run, have tis evil tendency to want to step on it. -_-" cos it's so irritating, keep jumping out den need to chase it. put it back and it jump out again.~$#@!%#%^& also did perfusion today. quite ok but my hands arent steady lol. shake like mad. especially when i anaestasize the mouse...it keep squeaking and want to bite my finger. den keep kicking away my syringe when i try to do a i.p.(intra peritonal injection - inject the stomach area there) -.-" anyway, perfusion is like to drain the blood outta the mouse and inject it wif saline and den fixed buffer to fix it. anyhow, i prefer dead mice more than live ones. getting more and more cold blooded soon lol. now see dead mice or mice blood oso no effect on me liddat lol. see dead mice = can cut up or take brain out. :X but i still HATEmice, if not even more after i came here. :/
anyway, have been really feeling damn regretful, damn depressed these few days, ever since i went for my fyp. the mice is one big worry and source of stress. another is the long hours and MY WEEKENDS!!!! they're ALL burnt! yes, i mean ALL. from now till 22th may, no weekends for me. im a slave of the lab for 7 days a week, for the whole of the 7 weeks. haiz. i guess, life still have to go on. no choice liao. cant quit. just have to try to do my best. very very grateful to my dear pig, for saying the words that i din want to hear but needed to hear. the words sound horrible but i needed to hear them. cos tat made me pick up myself up from the dumps. oh ya, and oso poor pig had to tolerate my awfully nasty temper these few days. :X haiz...oh well...time to go stone infront of telly and wait for anime. haven watched bleach 26 and naruto 129 yet. :\