tml is the deadline to submit vb project. we added stuffs, hopefully will make our project more interesting. really in no mood to update this properly. today's a really bad/sad day. firstly, it's been one mth already. yes, i've come to accept it, was still griefing 1 mth ago. But well. still feel sad though. next, haven been able to start studying at all. cant focus on the impt things. been thinking alot. really dun wish to think. and today, yet another thing really push me down down down. sigh. nvm. dun wan to talk abt it. i know im bottling up. but i dun care. anyway was late for 6:45 show at cine. took a cab down to orchard. wont normally take cab. den reach there at 645, but show already started. so i was late and had to see mom's 'lian se'. fine. the show, Passion of the Christ, was .... i dunno how to say. Basically i din really understand, i could only get some parts. sad to say, cos im nt a christian so i dunno the true meaning behind everything, but i did cry alot during the show. i dunno y?...came back home, again see mom's 'lian se'. dunno wads up with eveyrthing today la. damn pissed off but i'm trying not to get mad. den watched ami3. wTh. fantasia's in the bottom 3? wad the hell is wrong wif this world man. whatever. if she's out next week, i'm boycotting the show. IT SUCKS BIG TIME.
feel so troubled now. wish i can concentrate. but my mind's in a mess. tears im holding back, pain my heart is feeling. even when music is playing, everything feels so distant and unreal.
if only i had chose not to choose, back in july last yr. i needed a break back den. i shld hav taken a break from this game called 'love'. but i din. and now wad? the game wants to quit on me. yeah, so now im forced to call it quits. feel so terrible now. jie is right, im too soft hearted le. i shld hav juz chose not to choose. then all this wont have even happen. now, good lor. turn out like this. serve me right for not thinking carefully. dunno how to continue...end here.