Going thru a very different phase in my life right now. Still not really ready to say anything much yet. For those who know, really thankful for u all being there for me, helping me pass this difficult time in my life. Esp. my dear, mh. Sometimes when i feel like falling apart and cant handle the things, he is always there to support me and oso hear me vent my anger and frustrations :X Sometimes, it really feels so hard to carry on, but I know I must be strong, must accept things as they are. Also, must stand up for myself. In short, now i've pretty much gotten over being sad. Instead the anger is now kicking in, cos i'm kinda stuck in deep shit, stuck in the middle, in a position where i'd have to figure out how to get out, though this situation isnt wad i chose to be in, neither did any of my actions caused this. It's the result of someone close, yet now i have to bear all the burden. All i have to do now is to get on with my life, let those who are supposed to settle the things do their job and oso not to get bullied by them. Have been really damn stupid, letting them push the job to me, letting a TEENAGER take the rap. WTH. These ppl really sickening, irresponsible and have no consideration for others. In fact, I'm not 'others'. I'm their relative, their niece. And they, as adults, have the cheek and heart to even treat me like that. Nvm, doesnt matter, even if their conscience doesnt get the better of them, the results of their actions will eventually catch up with them. I must be strong in order to overcome this. Though i still cry very often these days, but I decided i shall tear no more. I shall save the energy to stay strong and outsmart them. They want to push their responsibilites to me right? Well, let's see how they'll handle it if i push back. I guess this shall be a lesson learnt. No matter what life wants to throw at me, no matter how tough the life can get, I'm not even gonna tink abt crossing the line, till my time is really up. I do admit, I used to have some of those thoughts, but now, after this, those thoughts are at the back of my mind; im gonna throw those thoughts far far away, into oblivion.