Been real sick these few days, missed many days of school, finally today went back to school. Happy to see classmates again, all so concerned, very touched T____T. Yet, very sianz to be back when you jolly well know got you've got lots of work ahead of you, if not right infront, or even above you, where the whole load's gonna come crashing down and crush you flat. =/ what to do. *sigh*
Realised tt I've developed an interest, which is an interest in NOTHING. Yes, I have become absolutely disinterested in almost everything that I can think of. (Okay, maybe except sleeping and tv and perhaps PT.) Other than that, even my favourite past-time, eating, simply disinterests me. Thinking of eating suddenly becomes a drag. This is bad. It means Im really sick and it seems the sickness took all the happy genes or whatever away from me too. Oh man. -___-
On vday, I received a call from an unknown number, I din know it was an overseas call. When I picked up the phone. Got a real shock. Because the voice over at the end REALLY REALLY REALLY sounded like D. The way he spoke, the tone, the voice, everything. Thats why I gt a real shock. But then it couldnt be D also, we lost contact for almost a year already. Weird thing was, deep down I did wish it was D. Just so I wanted to know how he was getting along with his life. Hope he's doing fine. Sometimes it makes me wonder, what if, 1 year ago, my decision was different? If I wasnt so childish and 'weak' then, how would life be like now? But I guess in life, all of us would make some decisions that in future when we look back, it'll make us wonder abt our choices. Anyway, the call was from sam kor who's in m'asia. (how ironic, both D and kor are malaysians) Both speak chinese, -__-!!! which is a language I feel rather uncomfortable conversing with, cos I cant speak chinese properly. :X Yeah, but dun care man, whenever I reach the limit, I'll instantly switch to english :P haha.