really hate the way i feel now. i wish someone would just shoot me down with a gun. im still feeling terrible. headache/ear ache/jaw ache/sorethroat/cough/fever. all my medicine eat finish le but im not even half way to the route of recovery. i tink i'll have to go see doctor on monday again. but monday there's presentation...sigh. nvm that. i used to have the will to want to recover fast, but this time i wonder where's the will. may sound like im exaggerating but that's exactly how im feeling, i feel like a terminally ill person. maybe i am, or soon to be. mom thinks it's funny when i say that. i beg to differ. i tink it's better for me to die now. here.
been quite awhile since i talked to sam kor. kinda missed him alittle. but den suddenly saw icq msg from him o.O have something i wanna ask him abt, but den on 2nd thought i dun feel like asking him anymore cos i know how he's gonna answer it anyway. Asked 2 ppl abt the issue yesterday - kor & glad. Both gave me exact same answer which is wad i tink also, i guess i juz need to be firm abt it. But den i oso dun wan to see him upset. no choice i guess. i really thought he was different, but i guess no matter how different, people still are basically human. People change, thoughts change, situations change etc etc. So if i can tell myself this, why the heck am i still so upset? ..............